How and where do I start this story?
Well I am 37 years of age and have nothing to show for life, I am homeless and broke and I am honestly at the point where I cant take any more.
Over the last 5 years I have been diagnosed with ME/CFS which I fight everyday, I have had a marriage breakd down, I have had a miscarriage to deal with, an abortion I knew nothing about. Redundancy, attempted suicide, break down of another relationship, my parents disowned me now I am homeless and broke. I also think I may have an alcohol problem as I cant get through a day without a drink.
My body and brain cant take anymore and I am sick and tired of waking up everyday to be on a sofa or the floor, I am sick of knowing today will be another fight for life.
I am a coward I know I am, suicide is a cowards way out but I cant see any other way out now. The few friends I have dont need my shit, my son has excelled since I left his mum and everytime I try to get a job or work I end up fucking it up.
I just cant do this anymore.
Anyone have any ideas before I completely go over the edge?
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You just some bad luck. Look if your homeless. YMCA or citizen advice can help you. I think you feel better when you got a place. Marriages break down. That’s life people full out of love. Just got to move on.
I know Donnie but i just cant move on
I would have to agree with Donnie about the YMCA and stuff.
I would also suggest going directly to the office of social services and seek help directly.
I am going tomorrow as part of my final plans so thank you for the advise
Coward….that’s the same word I have in my suicide letter that I have written up over this year. The only recommendation I would suggest before you commit suicide is to “swing for the fences” in main area in your life that you feel that you have failed in. Go for the goal that you had wish you had accomplished and if that didn’t work in the end you can always find comfort Inn the fact that you know that you have tried. That last attempt in life is, in my opinion, is something to be proud of.
Good luck friend.
I am trying to give everything a last try, I have made my plans and hope i caan find some strength not to see them through
Your are tired after a long struggle. People have offered some practical advice and getting a roof over your head is the place to start. There is so much to fix, but that doesn’t happen overnight. It seems like an insurmountable task but you will be surprised at how quickly you can gather momentum once things start to fall into place.
We were born with nothing and will leave with nothing. If you look at things along those lines, you haven’t given up any ground and can start again. This is the first day of you life. It’s a challenge but you are equal to the task. There’s a girl that used to post here called Klaurens. She made me see things differently.
Pick yourself up, dust yourself off and show them all. You can do it.
Thank you for your words, I have nothing left to pick myself up and fight on
Generally, people that contemplate death are passionate about life. If we are all playing a game where the stakes are really high, when things don’t go our way we feel dejected. That’s because we want to win. Thus, it’s not the challenge that we find gratifying but the reward. There lies the problem.