I honestly feel like giving up, I dont know what to do with my life anymore. Yes I know I’m 12 years old I should just be happy. I’ve been suffering depression since I was 9. I started self harming when I was nine. It started of really small. It soon got worse and worse. Scars cover my body. Â I cant go a day without thinking of suicide. I’m bullied everyday my parents currently split up my 3 baby sister died. I’m cyberbullied, I used to be abused. I soon learnt to keep to myself I told ONE person about my past abuse everyone soon found out and started saying ew who would want to hit him you could get a rabies ect. I get told to kill myself EVERYDAY. I dont want to be here anymore. I’m sorry everyone. ! Good-bye cruel world and ily best friend (shakira)
THIS is what my  best friend sent me before he committed suicide. I dont know what to say about it to be honest. I’m still in shock because of it. He meant everything to me.  I self harm now. Its my way of keeping calm and taking the pain away. I cant handle anything. I’m not as strong as I used to be. I starve myself I’m classed as “anorexic”. I miss him so much nothing and no one can replace him. ! :'( I cant deal with it. I cry every night. But to be honest I dont blame him for doing it.
I love you so much ______
R.I.P my best friend. :'( x0x0x0x0x0x0x0x0
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Indeed, I do hope your friend found solace in his final moments on this planet.
I must reference another user’s name yet again: “live for me, please”. I think it’s the perfect way to honour your friend. You are still at the tender age of twelve which is coincidentally the age I started having suicidal thoughts, but I’ve lived a further eight years since then and have achieved so much in my life, and you can too, Lil’ Miss.
I’m here if you want to talk. SP is here whenever you need it. Take care.
Damn,
Wish I could say something, do anything, to make your friend come back. People that are here, really do care, and you may be pleasantly surprised to know that some want to help.
My email address is always here: brl.cents@gmail.com