just die. please. end this. there’s a train coming right towards me and i don’t even move. what’s wrong with me?! have i no shame? have i no honor? have i no GOD? indeed, i’m a disgrace to my family of achievers. yes, i’m a man who wastes his days away playing swtor and masturbates everyday. i want to change. but i can’t. but i wanted to. i think i don’t want to. every time i look at the mirror, all i see is the embodiment of failure.
i know my girlfriend is sick of me being negative. why shouldn’t she? there are millions of positive, handsome, and successful people out there. she wants vacations to overseas. she wants shopping sprees. she wants everything a normal girl could want.
but i can’t give her anything. i don’t have money. no jobs. debts which lasts for 4 lifetimes.
the final project for my degree is coming in 1 month, yet still nothing. i’ve grown stupider over the years. fatter, uglier, worse.
alas, i’m a coward. you shouldn’t waste your time trying to motivate me. i’ve been to “motivation” talks hundreds of times, yet, nothing. life is not a movie where sheer willpower alone could prevail you. even if it works, its not for me.
that’s what i am… nothing.
pa… ma… i am so very sorry i turned up like this. such a waste of your hard-earned money.
i am sloth.
i am lust.
i am gluttony.
i am envy.
i am greed.
i am wrath.
what i’m not, apparently, is successful, hardworking, patient, brave, and all the other virtuous things you can think of.
i used to be better. but as past things were, my grandma used to be a virgin too. heh. probably too long for you guys to read anyway.
so here’s my real plea… any of you guys know how to switch off my brain functions using my will alone?
gratz for making it this far. here’s my thanks. goodbye.
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Wait…you have a Missus, and still fap? Well done.
Ahh…in regards to your final question there, I’m certain there’s no surefire way to switch off your cranial functions, if you’re referring to like your survival instinct and such. Best way would be to fool your brain into thinking the opposite if survival for that split second before it reboots itself, yeah?
No amount of pep talks will ever motivate you to become more, only YOU can motivate yourself to become better and grow as a person. And as we all know, nothing says “chu wanna fuck with me, main?” like being able to kick your own arse. That’s exactly what you need to do, kick your arse into gear and stop idling, aren’t petrol prices high enough?
“Embrace life or you will be annihilated!”…erm one way or another. Take it easy out there, and for fecks’s sake you have a Missus, stop choking the chicken and butter the muffin instead…golly.
tradition forbids i “butter the muffin” before marriage, which was impossible thanks to debt. “taking it easy” is what gets me here in the first place. nothing is serious for me anymore
about your degree project …
Start working the project now. Most people worry about worrying just by appointing some home work for the future( in your case one month). But that is not gonna make a good impact rather than worry about worrying more, right ? But how about finishing your home work wanna be “degree project” soon; by starting to work on it today ? That will be my stratagy if i were you. Getting hit by train doesn’t make you better, nor does it will give your girl friend a new life. Do you think she deserve a better person than you ? Then act like one by trying to be better.
“in life it is not the destination that is interesting, it is the journey.” walk the walk! It starts with your “degree project”. And trying not to gain anymore weight. Every challenge is hard before you start it. But after you start it, it will only get easier.
You mean…those same traditions that forbid self gratification? I know which I’d choose instead if either would see me breaking away from said “tradition”. Taking it easy is cruising through while maintaining good work/life ethics. What you’re describing sounds more like laying down your arms and giving up the fight. Heh, if nothing ain’t serious to you anymore, theb I don’t see why you’re engaging in a suicide forum. But alas.
shoulda rolled republic! That dark side’ll get ya…
“The Old Republic”…gosh I’m a fool.
i played at launch for a couple months, and again about a year later… most of the people who say it’s so terrible are just being excessively critical (the words “immature,” “childish” and “entitlement,” come to mind…). It’s actually pretty good, if you go into it with the right mindset. Inappropriate expectations can ruin so many otherwise good things… but due to “those issues” infesting a large portion of the community, it’s rather abrasive to play, with all the constant whining, bashing, and endless complaining. Same thing gonna happen to ESO: excessive and needlessly elevated expectations will lead to disgruntled users and endless bashing, which itself will turn people off, who would otherwise enjoy the game for what it is, which will end up causing the revenue to be much lower than expected, resulting in “F2P failure,” which will then be touted as “the reason to not play it.”
Yes, because it’s free, that’s a good reason to avoid it… !? People are so ridiculous sometimes. The miasma of arrogant entitlement in most online game communities, is nearly unbearable at times. People should learn to accept that the world is not yet quite as advanced as all the commercials encourage you to think (so that you’ll buy all the latest gadgets…), and just try to enjoy what is available… most of which is pretty good, if you let yourself enjoy it.