i really hope he gets a wakeup call one of these days. fuck you! i fucking changed. i don’t give a fuck if thats how i was in my past. how fucking dare you insult me like that. this is how i feel now and thats part of growing up and making mistakes. i don’t want to fuck around anymore. i have fucking feelings. i am also in fucking love and i fucking am not going to be degraded by you. fuck you. i don’t care what you say. i mean this. you just fucking keep hurting me. fuck you for tearing someone down this badly. thats not my fucking lifestyle any more and it couldn’t be farther from anything i want. how fucking dare you tell me i have to act and feel how i used to? how fucking dare you. you stole everything from me, and you fucking try and steal my feelings and thoughts too. fuck you for wanting to keep hurting me this bad. get a fucking job get your life together and stop using me and hurting me. I’ve shown signs of changing my life, you haven’t. you’re going in the wrong direction. how dare you. HOW MUCH CAN YOU FUCKING HURT ANOTHER HUMAN ON FUCKING PURPOSE! YOU FUCKING MEAN TO HURT ME. YOU FUCKING KILL ME, GO THE FUCK AWAY AND STOP SAYING ANYTHING TO ME. DONT YOU FUCKING UTTER ANOTHER HURTFUL THING TO ME. LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE. FUCK YOU I AM SCARRED FOR FUCKING EVER.
I’m sorry I’m cursing so much i don’t know how else to vent right now
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THE FACT THAT IM UNWILLING TO JUST FUCKING DO WHAT YOU WANT SHOULD TELL YOU IVE FUCKING CHANGED. IM NOT GOING TO LET YOU PAINT THE PICTURE OF ME THAT ISNT TRUE. IM NOT GOING TO DEGRADE MYSELF ANYMORE. I DONT FUCKING DRINK ANYMORE EITHER AND THAT FUCKING CONTRIBUTED TO SO MUCH SHIT. HOW FUCKING DARE YOU. YOU HAVE NOBODY ELSE IN YOUR LIFE TO TEAR YOU DOWN AND FUCKING TELL YOU ALL THE SHIT WRONG WITH YOU. AND YOU WONT LISTEN TO ME BECAUSE YOU THINK YOU’RE SUPERIOR AND ANYTHING I SAY IS FUCKIG FLUFF.
I almost got caps locked to death, there.
Silver lining: Normal human emotions, a.k.a. you aren’t insane.
“How fucking dare you. you stole everything from me, and you fucking try and steal my feelings and thoughts too.”
That could pretty much sum it up. People steal things. Even worse then that, they give you something to replace it. It’s just not a pretty gift. Because it’s pain, hurt, humiliation. All we can do? Is begin to prove them wrong by staying strong. At least, that’s the only tactic I’ve ever seen fit to deal with these mentalities.
“And you won’t listen to me because you think you’re superior and anything I say is fucking fluff”
That line is very, very triggering. That’s what disgusts me most about people. They think they’re so “superior”. Maybe they are. They have all the power, all the life they can ask for. They have control over other people. But why not listen to anybody else? That line is why we can’t fix things with words.
That comment you wrote is what the brains are polluted with of all those around me. People think they have control over me. Like you said, it steals your emotions. That’s my breaking point: time to let all the emotions go and stop being selfless.
I’m glad you were brave enough to vent, it’s nice sometimes. I’m sorry you have to be stuck in such a similar state, and I wish you all the luck you deserve.
I didn’t realize the all caps reply was from you too, I thought it was two different people. So I thought it was about to go down in here.
I’ve been through something similar and I know it’s hard. I hope it helped to vent and I hope you will be able to talk to the person hurting you about this.
thank you