invisable

i told you i couldn’t hang out, not that i didn’t want to. You wanted to party, i wanted to die. You thought i was happy and so did i. but little did we know happy wasn’t for me. i wanted to cry. i wanted to die. there was always something in me asking me why. i didn’t know what to say but then i realized that it was everything about me. My hair, my eyes, my legs, arms, my stomach, my chest, back, feet, my hands. It was the way i talked, the way i walked. i never thought i was good enough. i always thought i was wrong, stupid or and outcast. i wanted to be dead. i still do. there isn’t anything to change that. i wasn’t meant to live. you see i was meant to be dead. Ive lost everybody and i don’t know why. then i think about it maybe it was because you couldn’t keep a fucking secret and you had to tell. i cant believe i ever trusted you. i’m moving schools so i don’t have to be near you but you cant leave me alone. i didn’t do shit to be treated like this. yeah maybe i was being a little bit rude or didn’t want to hang out or have any motivation to do anything. you said i was pathetic. yet you cant seem to leave me alone. turn around and look in the mirror cause your just as pathetic as i am.