For 5 years I’ve been depressed. That’s a long time. And thinking that it’s all over and I’m finally feeling better about everything in life is only a joke. My 18th birthday comes and no one in my family remembers. I blow out the candles alone and make my wish. Then just one day later, my parents tell me they are divorcing.. constant yelling and screaming. All I can do is collapse on the ground in tears. I’m completely alone now. My parents arnt there. My family is broken. My depression is back. I struggle to hold back anger. Anger at myself. Anger at God for not answering my prayers. Anger at my parents for leaving me broken. What is there left? Nothing.
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I wish I had something helpful or constructive to say, but your comment made me remember this girl I knew in college. I’d ask here, “What are you up to?” She’d reply, “Waiting to die.” And she’d say it dead-pan serious.
But I’m really sorry no one celebrated your birthday with you. And that just days after you found out your parents were divorcing. That is painful.
Maybe smarter, wiser people than me will be able to provide a satisfying answer…
im 48 and totally agree.
I’m 24 and I totally agree.
Completely sucks and you have every reason to be pissed!!! But be pissed at them not yourself- prove everyone wrong by being the strong one who only depends on your self for your own happiness- those are the only words of wisdom I can offer and I tell you it because it is what I did- I now take great satisfaction in knowing I made my own happiness or misery and no one was going to affect that except myself- time to be selfish and make yourself proud and happy – that’s one of the hardest things in life to do as many always count on others for their own happiness or misery- but being yourself with total control is something to strive for-
Not saying it will be easy but think of yourself you deserve it!!!