No one seems to truly care. It all seems like they superficially care and love me, but no one wants to sacrifice their time to help me in this crazy fast and lost world. You talk about depression and every body is like “Just be happy” or wants to give you tough love, as if that would help! I need somebody to walk it out with me, in person!
And then the subject of suicide is brought up and almost everybody says those people are cowards.
Look for help and all they wanna do is give you medication. I dont want medication, I want true love, help and patience!
Its like, I wouldnt be depressed or consider thoughts of suicide if people would actually be people and stop being so concerned about their own wealth and status and television and entertaining themselves and start being truly concerned about the poor, about the weak, about the lowly in spirit, who are all around them!!!
Everybody thinks its so easy to overcome depression. When you loose somebody like your mother to suicide, you feel as though everybody will desert you, which has been the case!!!
Family, friends, who are they to me? Since they leave me alone and are to busy to actually help.
Im freaking 22 years old and homeless. No one seems to care. They all say “I wish I could help” and then go on their marry little way. To concerned about themselves, and no one else. In a nation with so much wealth we are truly poor! I truly feel like I am in hell sometimes.
So maybe I should commit suicide, maybe its the answer. Since the world around me doesnt care, maybe commiting suicide would help some people see the true colors of the world around them, that they have created.
These are my, unedited, suicidal thoughts.
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Sorry to hear…. 🙁 This must be extremely hard for you… And people in society dont understand at all…
not that my comment will change anything
There wouldn’t be any homeless shelters there? I dont live there so i don’t really know…
All the homeless shelters are for veterans, families and the pregnant
Kristofery,
I’m going to be honest: In regard to what you said about superficial care and love from many people, I feel you are absolutely correct. That’s probably not a very popular opinion, but in my experience, I’ve discovered it to be true for the most part. I think most of us only have a handful of people (if we’re lucky) that truly love us and that we love in return. But the more positive side of this is that these people are what life is about and what it is worth living for.
It’s unfortunate that nobody you know is willing to lend you a hand. However, I do not feel that taking your life would wake people up to any large degree, as you said yourself we live in a world where many people are concerned only for themselves.
I agree with your views on medication: It is used far too often as a substitute for addressing real issues. I am not suggesting that meds cannot be useful in some cases (and they sometimes have their place in assisting with mental health struggles), but it sounds like you are aware of the true root of your problems: Your desire for a better life.
It is out there. Your situation is difficult, no doubt, but I am confident you can overcome it, even if doing so is not easy. You mentioned that homeless shelters are not an option; what about government assistance of some kind? They may be able to help you financially as well as assist in finding you a job if you need one.
L4Y
I’m 21 and am relieved to hear I’m not the only one who sees the world this way. We have very similar suicidal thoughts.