All I wanted was to be with her. She was the only one that actually cares. She noticed me when no one else would. She hang out with me because nobody else wanted to. I fell in love with her then a week later she acts like I don’t exist and tells me she can’t be with me anymore. I try to be friends with her for the next week but I can’t understand why she would hurt me like that. I needed her more than anything in the world and she hates me for a reason I don’t even know and was never told. I’m thinking of committing suicide. I’ve always been like this but was too scared to actually do it. But now I’m not scared. I could do it any moment now. I’m just seeing if there’s any reason to stay. I need help. She wants nothing to do with me. I tried talking to her about it but what else could I do? Can someone help me and give me a reason to stay?
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Please don’t hurt yourself because of what someone does or doesn’t do. Sometimes, we just have no idea what they’re thinking. Perhaps there is something going on in her world that she has to take care of. You mentioned that she hung out with you when no one else did and, a week later, fell in love with her. Maybe it’s a good idea to let a little time pass. Catch your breath. Sometimes we move quickly while others move at a different pace. Perhaps you’re thinking on one frequency and she’s thinking on another. Take some time to let her be. When people feel smothered, sometimes they push away. I’m not saying you’re doing it on purpose but it could be an unintended consequence.
Think about your goals and what you want to do in life. YOU should be your first reason to stay. It will be easier to find people with common interests when you’re on your own path to participating in things you like to do. Get outside. Participate in activities. Try to meet people. Cover all the bases so that you have her as a friend and some new friends, too. If you have difficulty making friends, maybe it’s a good idea to get some therapy. There’s nothing wrong with it. I go to therapy so I’m suggesting it from experience. It could help you going forward.
Thanks for trying but she loved me too. That’s why she commited suicide. Because she couldn’t be with me. She needed me and I couldn’t be there for her