I have two ex-wives that I am current with all my child support and medical support. I try to have visitation with my children and would be declined and never got any help from the courts. They have made false allegations numerous times that has cost me to have financial problems at $25,000 a pop it quickly drained everything I had. I can’t see my kids false allegations have me in court and if I lose I go to prison. I was told if I get sent to prison I would be raped and murdered within two weeks and my children would get nothing. If I die outside of prison even with my own two hands my children would receive financial support until the age of 18 about $1100 a month each. I don’t want to leave my children without anything so I think the best thing is for me to end my life, as my ex-wives keep me from my children already. I am not married my family has disowned me and I really have nothing left to keep me from doing this.I have a couple weeks till court and if I see that I am not going to prevail I will take my life. I have gave up everything so I could have a relationship with my children but due to religion in my area and my ex-wives constantly lying they have taken all that I care for, my daughters. At 40 years old I never figured that I would be so alone or so scared as I cry myself to sleep every night. All I want is to be able to hug my daughters and tell them I love them and I can’t even get that to happen.my father abused me severely growing up as a child and he took his life when I was 16 and my step mother took her own life when I was 18, so suicide is nothing new to me. I will let you know if I am going to do this a few minutes before it happens.
god bless
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I am sorry how difficult things are. I am concerned about what is happening that is making you give up on life. Please seek help- I wonder if the innocent project could help? I know it is for convicted prisoners but maybe they could point you a better direction. If that org. can’t help, think again of who might. You can’t give up on you.
I am alone too. It is the hardest thing I have ever experienced, even without the major problem you describe. The two together- the loneliness and legal problems? It is no wonder you are down.
But this is the time to gather your inner strength. Yeah, that is a cliché but what do you have to lose if you are ready to give up? Don’t let this beat you.
Keep reaching out, esp here. Write again!
P.S… I am sorry you have been surrounded by suicide. Don’t continue this tradition. You are too important, you have a story. Tell it.
Don’t let the organization drive you to your death
You have beautiful daughters that would be heartbroken and guilty if you took your own life
Do something crazy, but don’t kill yourself
They’re all just conspiring against you
Fight back and win
You’ve probably heard people say this before but i am just at a loss as to what to say to you. I truly hope things get better for you. I never had to deal with a situation like this but i know what it’s like to be without a dad. I am in my 20s and still feel the absence of my father like it happened yesterday. I wish my father had fought as hard as you are now to have a relationship with me but he doesn’t care. You are the example of a father’s love. Don’t give up just yet, you’re daughters need their father.