When trust is just out of reach
And the soles of your shoes have worn from your feet
When you begin to accept defeat
I Will fight for you.
When day transcends to night
And the darkness has extinguished all light
When nothing ever feels right
I will fight for you.
If you decide to hate me
If you find that I’m disgusting
If you’re scared of what I’m thinking
I will fight for you
Because Trust still illudes me
Vulnerability is terrifying
And I know it hurts to breathe
I will fight for you.
But I know that in the end
When I can’t seem to find a friend
When no kind words are sent
No one will fight for me.
When I take my last breath
And happily give myself to death
End the beating in my chest
No one will fight for me.
I just wanted someone to fight for me
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If you only knew how perfectly this would go on my tombstone. You summed up my life and quite possibly my death. I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way, Sams. All I can say is I hope you get some sleep tonight, no dreams, no nightmares, just escape.
Thank you, salt. Feeling pretty hollow right now and sleep just doesn’t come easy. I hope you have a peacful night as well.
Ha yeah I figure anyone who’s up at midnight on a suicide site is probably not readily drifting off to sweet slumbers… but it never hurts to hope. I figure I’ll put on some silly Hugh Grant romance flick and laugh myself to sleep…
As long as you’re laughing, I suppose. I’m cheering you on.
Hmm. Sammi, I can’t remember if I’ve ever commented on one of your posts. Been simultaneously trying to avoid being on this site too much and checking this site all the time, so I’ve seen a few of your posts, lol. You make some interesting poetry, though. I really enjoyed your “So Blind” post, actually. Well-written. I didn’t see it in time to really comment on it, but I thought I’d mention it here.
If you look, you’ll find someone more than willing to fight for you. I just about got-dayum guarantee it.
Thanks. I hope you’re right. Seems like an uphill battle with bricks where my feet should be.
i liked your post! and the poem.
Me too! I fight for myself extremely when I feel positive enough to do so, It can certainly take its toll though when no one else does. I think a lot of it is down to people in the world generally being sectioned off by the ways of the world.. If YOU’VE got it good then you’ve got it good , if its the opposite then only you can change it. Everything we get out of life is mostly down to us and so the fight begins when we can’t quite get bugger all!
Whoa, its like I just read my life story… I wish I could express to you how I relate to this.
I really enjoy your style.
Thank you.
Thank you. I’m glad you’re able to take something out of my ramblings. 🙂 but I hate that you’re feeling that way. Hope things start looking up.
Hey Sammi. Ive read alot of your posts and am very sorry for the pain and despair you have been experiencing. But I want to thank you for being so open and real. This poem cut deep into my soul and was like you were writing out my innermost thoughts and feelings. So thank you for sharing this. May you find peace and may you find a true man who is worthy enough to deserve you and your fight. And may he fight for you with the same vigor and passion for which you deserve.
I can’t tell you how much I appreciate the sentiment. Its funny how a few kind words can make such a huge difference. Thank you.