Confused

Depression and anxiety are really tough to deal with especially in these ages.
Self harm in my opinion causes more harm than it does cause relief.
When you feel really bad and have nothing else to turn to, you should be trying to see if there are other things you can use to relieve yourself insted.

You shouldn’t push all of your feelings away, it will backfire at you eventually.
You have to let them flow, and if your really have good friends, see if you can speak your mind and feelings out to them.

If you like that guy and he really does wants to be your friend, you should let him.
You don’t have to be a stick to be pretty. A little extra weight doesn’t mean a thing.
I am sure you look great and at any case weight isn’t the only thing that makes a person attractive.

You’re not a fuck up.
Maybe you hate your life as it is right now but things will change. Especially after school.
Don’t worry too much and try to take it easy.
Do things at your own pace, but don’t push your feelings or things you should do away.
Let your feelings flow slowly, and do the things you need to do one by one when you can.
Do things you like as a reward or take time to relax as a reward for doing stuff you planned.

You’re already taking medication to help you, so that’s a good step to helping yourself out bit by bit.