“Endurance” what does endurance mean? Hi everyone! I’m new to this site, but I’m sure we are all here for the same reason. We have suicidal thoughts or have actually attempted to take our life. I was diagnosed with ADHD at 9. At age 11 I was diagnosed with depression. I was never abused nor was I bullied in school, but I was always lonley when it came to socialize with others, I never thought that being alone was a bad thing. I actually liked being alone, but I came to realize that I had no friends. I have a family who cares A lot for me, but little did I apreciate that. I attempted to take my life 4 times. Hospitalized in 3 different hospitals, little did I know how it would affect me when I arrived at the hospital. I was 12, I had the ugliest feelings about myself, I literally hated myself. But upon arriving to the hospital, I was scared, I couldnt believe that I was there because I tried to kill myself. I cried every night for my parents. But something changed when friends and family came by to see me…I had about 7 visits in one day. And everyone would just stare. Afted visiting hour was over, a boy came up to me and asked, “were all those people your family? Why are you here if you have all these people coming to see you, they love you.” Boy did that make me think. Why am I deppressed? Till this day on I still have thoughts of hurting myself. But thats why I have to keep on enduring! Keep my hopes bright. We all have a cloud raining on us, but eventually a beautiful rainbow will come out. Do not feel scared to talk to someone about how you feel, be honest and just pour out your thoughts. No one can judge you, we are all imperfect human beings trying to be good. Suround yourself with positive thoughts. You are a precious jewl to those who love you!
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Mental illnesses are genuine illnesses that distort the mind and are unable to be changed through positive thinking or “deciding” to change your life one day or “choosing to be happy” alone. It is a genuine disorder that needs careful and incessant medical treatment, not pseudo self convincing. I’m glad you have changed your perspective though.
I suffer from a form of OCD and many times I have been told by my therapist that knows nothing about my disorder that I should just “distract myself” from my obsessions by taking walks, taking baths, wearing my favorite jacket etc…. OCD is literally the inability to stop thinking and “obsessing” about a thought, if it was that easy to circumvent it wouldn’t be an illness that obstructs a person from functioning, simply a minor impediment, it’s impossible for those that can’t empathize to fully understand the gravity of mental illnesses and how it is not as malleable as a normal perspective
Don’t tell me what to do.
Serious answer: There’s a limit to how much one person can endure. I have been enduring this suffering for 25 years and I can’t wait for it to be over. I don’t know for how much long I can resist the urge to put an end to my own life.
Yet somehow you keep going on. Somehow.
I have someone to live for. But this someone will not live forever and the day she is gone, is the day I will be gone as well. Considering this someone is a dog, it won’t take more than a couple years.