Mom:
You ruined my life! Every single day a part of me hated you so much no matter how loud of a laugh you caused to escape my mouth. Your religion opened my eyes to open mindedness because I would never wanna be such a close minded hating Christian like you. I hate myself most of the time because that fact that I’m gay I should be “ashamed.” I must be going to hell some day or at least that’s what you think right. I am going to hell because I was born admiring the same sex and decided to follow a path that is more accepting and that is more for me. But instead of being proud you shut your arms and stair at me with disappointment in your eyes. You say you love me but who tells there own child they’re gonna burn if they don’t love the opposite sex or believe in a god they dont. You gave me home, food, clothes, but you forgot to give me true love. How deeply this will impact the ones I love and I am sorry but I am able to say there is no love in my heart for you, not now; but what is in my heart is forgivenss and some day maybe you’ll earn it.
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Conditional love is harsh, perhaps especially if the conditional love is based on religious views or beliefs. I grew up with that. My sister, for example, had to keep living w
Conditional love is hard… perhaps especially when based on religious views or beliefs. I speak from personal knowledge as I come from similar. My sister, for example, kept that she was living with her boyfriend (now husband) for a few years from our parents…. it was a secret. When the secret was out my father refused to visit knowing how “she was living in sin”.
I personally don’t care what your orientation is. A lot of people don’t anymore, it is the ones that do that tend to speak the loudest despite being almost in the minority.
The old testament did state that homosexuality was a sin. The new coventent (ie new testament), Jesus never once is recorded as condemning homosexuality, it was his followers instead. Jesus spoke of tolerance, peace, acceptance, and forgiveness. Homosexuality was around in the biblical times just as it is now which would speak to the idea that it is fundamentally natural. Aside from humans, it exists in the animal kingdom. Sadly though, I doubt that your mother has an open enough mind to see this…. I believe that you are however.
I know full well conditional love. You deserve to be loved unconditionally. You are special. 🙂
You can’t choose your parents. And her beliefs are scaring her to death, because she’s just fearing for you over what she believes…..Look at it from her point of view. Her child, who she loves is doing something her religion says is forbidden and the punishment is damnation. This is what she believes. She’s trying to protect you. Or thinks she can save you. We all know that this isn’t going to happen. God, if such is true, created and loves his crwations. I don’t care what some old book says. A book written by men and altered by Caesar himself. Who else twisted the words in the bible? Return the love and ignore the hate that is actually fear.
You can’t change anybody’s faith. If your mom thinks something then you are not suppose to force her to change it. Just once think- u think that your mom’s love changed for you because of your thinkings and it have hurt you. Then if you will change your feeling your love for your mom just because of her thinking then whats the difference between you and your mom??
So if possible give her time. If she really loves you then she will accept you as you are. But you dont change yourself . Jesus asked for love not for hate.. For forgiveness not for revenge. So keep going by spreading love. please keep calm.