I have the worst life story ever ,All of my life I was alone and depressed I used to cry a lot and I have cut my self in the age of 13 ,I am now 20 but still feeling so alone and worthless ,My life changed when I’ve finished High school and it became better .. but after the first semester of university so many problems came to me at once ,and I’ve met bad people that made my life a living hell ,Felt in love with the wrong person .. and he broke my heart in the worst ways .. and in the worst timing In my finals .. I had the worst grades .. the worst relationships with family and colleagues ,All of that finished in the end of the semester of my second year 21 of may 2015 .. the date that I’ve decided to start a new life .. and to cut off all of my relations and never use whats App or Facebook nothing .. I wanted to start a new life , I’ve wanted to live for the first time of my life .. then shit started even worse than before ,I forgot how to laugh anymore.
I will write the rest of my story but this is my first attempt to write here.
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Hi,
I’m really sorry to hear you’ve had such a hard time. I’ve only read one post from you so I don’t know much about you and can’t say much about your life, except that I know long-term depression and loneliness are hell. Sorry you’ve had bad experiences with university and difficult relationships. I’m here to talk to. This is a great place to let off steam when you need. Are you still trying to start the new life without all of your relations?
I have no one now .. except a boyfriend that I don’t know why I just keep him away from me and choose not to see him at all .. I don’t know whats wrong with me one day I love him so much and the other I just hate him .. I feel even more depressed when he get sad and leave .. I really don’t know what do I want anymore .. I’ve just fight with him and at the same time I really want to talk with him and tell him I Love you .
Is there a reason why you feel like you hate him some days? I don’t know if this applies to you, but I’ve found that sometimes if you feel terrible you can get angry with (or anxious around) the people close to you without any reason. I think it’s because you react like a threatened animal, even when you realise that your pain is coming from the inside rather than the people around you. It must be hard for both of you.
Thank you so much ,I guess what you’ve said is 100% true ..
I may do so because I have nothing to do and I am Really depressed these days ,I am fighting with everyone because I feel that my life must end now ..
Thanks Trix.
That makes sense. It’s a tough situation, so keep posting if it makes you feel better. Sometimes you just need someone who gets it.