So I just got my first job and I don’t know. I want to be happy about it but I feel like I’m just going to fuck it up bad. I feel like I’m going to do or say something stupid and everyone is going to remember it and I’m terrified I’ll be humiliated and I just want to cry even thinking about starting my first shift is making me want to burst in tears I don’t know if it’s just jitters or what but I feel like I’m going to simultaneously vomit and cry I don’t know what to do. I’m panicing so bad right now I rather die than start my first day and I know it may sound very dramatic I just don’t know. People have tried to tell me I’ll be fine but I can’t help this nagging feeling that I’m going to screw up beyond repair.
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Ok, deep breaths in and out. What is it that you will be doing?
It’s ok to feel worried about the first day, that’s natural, everyone does. You will learn how to do the job, and you will be able to do it. There is nothing wrong with making a mistake, I promise you. Unless you manage to completely destroy the place, any mistake you make will be repairable.
It’s a stupid movie theater but it’s sooo big. There’s over 50 employees and I know it sounds so stupid to get like this but it just seems really overwhelming and everyone keeps brushing me off and saying I’m silly. It feels a lot more than being worried my heart feels like it wants to burst. My chest feels tight as hell and I’m trying to not cry
Like you I was on edge when I first started at my current job. It basically saved my life so it really mattered that I didn’t fuck up. In hindsight now I realized I was worried for nothing. Sure the managers are going to act their part and try to appear tough-but as long as you do what’s expected, you’re fine.
Remember you’re in training, so they’re going to take it fairly easily on you. In fact the time you should actually start worrying is when you’re expected to already know this stuff (after you are trained).
I’ve been at my job for a few years now and know the managers and people’s personalities very well and know who to avoid and who I can ‘pal around’ with. You’ll learn as well. Our work is fairly repetitive (office job) but the situations do vary which keeps it interesting.
It’s not a great job, but I can think of much worse jobs than mine and I’m just glad to be working. Some days when I feel suicidal/depressed/anxious, I actually look forward to going into work and being in that routine-plus we have numerous people with a good sense of humor so it makes your day more enjoyable. I’m sure you’ll be fine-focus on the excitement of getting the job rather than the fear of screwing up and you’ll be ok.
You’re right. I just need to calm down. Thank you hearing that actually put at a bit of ease
You’re welcome and glad that you’re putting things in perspective.
Yes calm down! Work is a great way to meet people too! Just think of talking to your co-workers. They understand you are new. So they will definitely help you if you don’t understand something!