isit just me I feel like I have no purpose being here on earth I feel alienated I’m just floating though life like a leaf in the wind no real goals just making a mess of things no real meaning to be a live I no life is what u make it but I really haven’t got the energy to keep fighting we all end up in the same place anyways rich poor Healthly etc isit because I’m depressed anxious and suicidal and il been researching it sounds like iv got depersonalisation is that why I’m floating not connected to my body or isit just my destiny to die early ?
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I feel exactly the same way about two times a week. The other five is an existential crisis for fifteen minutes in the morning.
Hay hazy yeah I really don’t no what to do with my self or were to start or why I feel like this
Hi D. You’re not alone. Depersonalization is something I feel most of the time. It’s like I’m standing on the side looking at myself and thinking, is this what life really is about? I don’t feel connected to my body. I feel no connection to life or to other people for that matter. My only reason for being alive is my family, but it’s not enough sometimes, not when I’m in so much pain. They don’t understand what I’m going through. I can’t take this anymore. I’m not alive for me. I’m alive for other people. I’m still around to keep the people around me happy, while I’m miserable as fuck all the time. I pretend to be okay. But I’m really suffering. I’m tired of wearing this happy person mask when I’m dying inside.
Hay Ylem yeah that’s how I feel so I’m not alone then just crazy then lol Yh I guess that were the self harm comes into things ah but yeah it sucks a lot
Yeah, self-harming is a way to bring myself back to reality. A reminder that I’m still among the living. But, for the most part, I feel dead. I haven’t cut in a while so I’m stinking and decomposing at the moment. A zombie. Deadylemwalking.
Yeah I totally know the feeling it’s a nightmare man
I could have written that word-for-word
I also don’t have the energy to try to paddle upstream when the current is taking me down…