I dont even know what to write here, im so lonely, i dont know where home is. Im so embarrassed about how i get when im upset. Im weird and it feels like nobdoy could possibly love me. Its 4:43am and im always awake at this time, i dread the sun coming up so badly every morning. I sleep all day and that helps but at the same time i think it’s not doing me any good. I haven’t worked in like a year. I just dont feel alive, all i crave is to be held but girls dont even like me, im not ugly so it must be me.. roughly 2 years ago my long term girlfriend left me a week before my bestest friend hung himself. Is this how he felt? I think about dying sometimes, like every night, it scares me but sometimes i cant cope. I’ve moved from town to town since trying to find hope but i just dont.. im 24 in a couple months and im nothing, i used to be so different, i was kind of popular through high school but now nobody wants to know me. I feel like i could write forever, im too embarrassed to talk to people about it because i know they’re tired of hearing it, plus they dont really care anyway. I dont have family to talk to, they gave up on me years ago. I just feel broken and lost..
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im right there with you buddy
This is the first site like this I’ve found. Do you find it helps?
yes it helps a lot..we are all super f’ed up here and get along well… its easier because we are not face to face..but people understand, we have all been suicidal here
Yeah, it helps… a bit. It’s not magic. Just takes the edge off.
well most obvious is sports… I also am passionate about love.. and music when I am not super sad..what about you
What sort of music do you like?
I love the unknown, ancient mysteries, the theory of extraterrestrial. I also LOVE music (Both writing it and listening to it)
I like to write it and listen too..believe it or not don’t laugh but i like cheesy pop like taylor swift and 1direction
Hey that’s cool, I myself don’t listen to much popular music. I love underground rap (nothing gangster, as I simply can’t relate to popping hoes and shooting police lol). When you say you write as well, what genre do you write? I find it absolutely amazing when people can write other genres as I don’t grasp the concept of how they construct the timing and placement of words.
I write mostly hard core rap or love songs..
That’s rad man.
U write music ranging from depression to anger to funny punchlines to society. Feel free to share your music any day 🙂
I mean I write* stupid auto correct
ya… when I’m sad I write the love songs.. when I am manic I write… the fu stuff and punch line stuff
Saaaame. Well it’s 6.43am now so I really must be trying to sleep, good chat and I’m sure we’ll run into each other again on this site some time 🙂
ok buddy..was awesome
Agreed. Thanks for the chat. I appreciate it
Yeah I hate being face to face with people which contradicts me saying I’m lonely. I only momentarily feel suicidal which I guess is good but the rest of the time I already feel dead.
yes me too..
What are your interests/passions ?
I no that feeling my friend I’m here if U want to talk
I don’t know how to stop this feeling or lack of feelings. I’ve dealt through so much but to be honest none of it matters compared to being alone every day
To be honest with you, my problems are different. In fact, I crave being alone. I do better when I’m by myself. I wish I could divorce myself from human society. I hate going to work and being around people all day. I hate everything about human society.
This site is different though. Like what SportsNut said… we are a sub-culture, of sorts… not face-to-face, but for the most part, all fed-up with existence in one form or another. In short, we understand each other. So yeah, that helps us deal with the shit.
Loneliness is a killer I hate my own company one reason I self harm to distract my self but it’s a friendly site
Yeah life is a tricky one, in saying that I do tolerate life because I remember a time when I was happy momentarily. This site is amazing tho
@iamtheblues
What do you do to pass the time while your alone? I sort of isolate myself because my self esteem is so low that I don’t actually have any friends in the town I live in and watching movies gets mind numbing after too long
Welcome to rock bottom, we are serving cocktails of bitter tears behind that sad dumpster behind the Wal-mart of 45th and Lector street.
Seriously though, great place to blow off steam and find acceptance. Also great place to work out crazy ideas. Whenever I feel like what I’m feeling is insane I come here and think, “nope, that dude is as bad off as I am”. It gives me solace knowing there are folks like us in this world.
Wow there are so much people on here, I have been searching through Facebook and Google for something to type my thoughts into and thought this wasn’t a thing, I’ve read a few posts on here from others and I’ve noticed they feel anxious and exhausted and so many other feelings that I feel, it strangely helps. I feel less alone even though I’m not directly talking to somebody, like I can express how I truly feel without feeling ashamed.
Liberating isn’t it? Like skinny dipping in a clear rock quarry.
What’s a quarry ? Sounds American, is it a similar to a lake ?
Old rock mines that form pits that fill with water. USA is littered with them.
That’s actually pretty cool. I’m trying to picture what that’d be like to swim in