I just need to be loved

I don’t know of I actually wanna die or not, but lately I’ve been feeling like attempting suicide, only so others can show their love to me. I imagine overdosing or trying to cut my wrists and one of my closest friends or a guy/girl I like finding me just before I die. I imagine them crying about me, wishing I don’t die, and these thoughts give me a strange kind of warm feeling. I feel the urge to hurt myself just so that other can care for me. I feel the urge to die just so that others cry about me. I don’t want revenge over anyone, I just want them to love me, even if it means I’m dead.