“oh what a delight, a day at the zoo,
seeing the sights, i love the zoo
stay by the mungkhees an hour or two
people watching because people are brutes”
These words keep running through my mind. I wrote them and have read them over and over and listened to the recording over and over so maybe that is the reason that I can’t let go of the words. But I’m here, wondering about hullucinations. I’ve never mistaken a hallucination for reality (except when I think an event has occured, but it only has in a dream) but I think I’m seeing and hearing voices.
Could just be a combo of my active imagination/loneliness/high IQ/malnutrition/narcotic smoking/not wearing my glasses that are making me think I’m seeing and hearing things. Nothing ever specifically tells me to do anything and I’ve never seen imaginary people or anything. It’s more like loud but faraway chatter that I can discern, but just barely. Usually it’s thoughts I’ve had that are on repeat; I worry about it because I have no control over it.
I can’t stop myself overthinking at all and I’m just wondering if anybody here has epxerienced anything similar. I’m probably just a severe overthinker but I worry (as worriers tend to do) about my sanity, especially considering the fact that I want to die. Am I going crazy or am I just bored?
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Some drugs induce psychosis, if you’re experiencing hallucinations or hearing voices I would highly recommend quitting drugs because they’ll only amplify your existing symptoms. I would see a doctor, maybe you’re also dealing with anxiety. Have you done any reading on Schizophrenia???
I overthink constantly. I think the main part of it for me is that there is no one else to talk to, so I’m stuck in my mind.
I can definitly relate to over thinking. Analysising everything from my own behavior and how I appear to others something as simple as a movement. I wouldn’t say for a second your going crazy. Being in-tune and focused is never a bad thing, there’s many positives to it. I would say your just bored, your missing something you wish was there, and your fighting to get it back. But your doing it in the right way, your fighting. It proves you care about your actions.
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I’m very lonely and I think a lot as well, about my life about what could have been, about my future, getting old, why certain things have to happen, I often consider that whole countries may not exist and I am being lied too. I wondered whether I was mad, but after considering it I am just human, thinking, questioning and wondering. However this nature of mine is enhanced by my loneliness and I dream fluently in color some can be quite scary and believable. I don’t think we are going mad, its simply a symptom of being alone.