if I go missing to make an attempt, and I fail, what would happen when the police find me? I currently live with my parents but I am not a minor so I am legally able to just fuck off somewhere, but my parents know I am not doing well since last week my boyfriend called the cops on me after I had a breakdown and my parents were there when the police came. I was hospitalized for a few hours but they sent me home instead of to a facility. I am more serious about this attempt than any other, and I really hope […]
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got 200 tablets of benadryl on stand-by. I know ODing isn’t that effective and it sucks but I just need to fuck myself up
I attempted to strangle myself twice this afternoon and I called my boyfriend before each attempt and he didn’t answer me. he also did not respond to an hour-long stream of texts I sent him before my first attempt. I talked to him this morning so I know he was awake. he might have turned off his phone, which is GREAT
looks like he doesnt care so thats one less reason for me to stay on this world
didn’t bring my money
can’t buy more gas, food, drinks
my phone is dying and I didn’t bring any chargers
I don’t have a destination
it’s just me and the road and what happens in-between
I don’t want to come back
wish people could try to help me in ways that I’m able to see instead of ways that only they can see … my wording is awful I don’t know if that made sense I just needed to put this out somewhere thx for reading
He is the only one who can give me the strength to lift me out of this rut… I’m trying my best to make him understand how dire this is. It can only be him. My friends, family, they won’t be able to pull me out. I need him here with me. He doesn’t understand. I’m willing to risk everything to have him with me again, because he’s been the shining light in my life that has kept me going. I’m so exhausted, so beat up. I don’t have the energy to fight anymore. The only reason why I haven’t given up yet is because […]
took the first few steps of disconnecting from this world. deactivated my facebook + messenger, instagram, discord. Still attached to my Twitter account, but I’ve refrained from interacting or posting anything. But I’ll abandon it soon too. Just want to have people forget about me for a little while before I go out with a bang. I’m only deactivating and not deleting so that my loved ones can retrieve the data I’ve left behind once I send them all my usernames and passwords.
Is there any way where I can knock myself out for a few days without hurting my body? Or is that just not possible? Stay unconscious in a hospital for a few days?
Being awake and conscious of my own thoughts is just too exhausting. My parents have tried to take me out on trips and spent a lot of money on me to try to cheer me up, and as much as I appreciate their efforts, it’s not working for me. I can’t cheer myself up either. No matter how much I try to distract myself, it all leads to the same train of thought. […]