damn i’m back after 14 months. broke up with my girlfriend long back, long distance wasn’t working. went out with another girl soon after, she flew back to her country. currently going out with someone else but i feel like i’m receiving mixed signals from her. confronted her regarding this a week ago and she apologized, we had dinner the other day and it was fun. but i’ve been left on seen from the past 10 hours. being the anxious and the overthinking person i am, shit like this affects me even though my rational side knows nothing is wrong. over the past 14 months, […]
thoughts on long distance relationships? i’m currently in one from like two months. major overthinker here. shit’s going fine i guess.
random rant pt2289249
check out my previous post for the backstory. so the girl i was crushing on? i got drunk and confessed to her on 6th october. we’re together now. it’s a long distance relationship and we haven’t met each other yet, but something about this feels right. hope it lasts, wish me luck y’all :”) *fingers crossed*
i’m grateful to have around 9-10 friends that’re really fucking supportive. but on the other hand, i have a toxic, conservative, religious and an extremely strict family. also i met some people online, they turned out to be toxic af and my energy gets drained every time i’m […]
how’s quarantine for y’all? it’s kinda shitty for me, i don’t have easy access to booze or tobacco as i’m living with my family rn. back here after a month. overthinking should be my middle name fr. from over analyzing every text of hers to deciding the title of this rant, i’m a confused mf. i came across this website four years back when i was 15, fuck i’ve grown a lot since then. nothing new in my life rn, online uni is trash (engineering). i met some nice people online in may/june, caught feelings for a girl who lives 2700 kms away. apparently she […]
i’m turning 19 really soon, my sister is 8. i’m currently in my 2nd year of bachelors (living in the middle east, studying in india). my parents have been emotionally abusive and manipulative from 2015. it’s too fucking hard to explain and idh the time to type it out rn. they’re extremely conservative, religious and superstitious. i cannot share any details of my personal life with them as they’ll use it at a later time to constantly belittle me. they openly said they don’t like me as i’m an atheist and haven’t prayed in years. till 2017 they used to beat me up if i […]
i’m here after two months. feeling slightly better as my second year of uni commenced a week back and i became a part of a pretty good research club. i’m here to talk about fond memories and clinging on to them. this post is mainly about a friend i made in grade 10, four years back. if you’re ever here, N, i hope you come across this.
she transferred from an all girls school to a co-ed school (mine) in 2016. i was one of her first friends. turns out she lived literally two fucking minutes from my house. we bonded pretty well and got close […]
the days just go by. i distract myself by watching a LOT of tv shows. about 12 hours of screen time a day. the routine is so fucking monotonous. i’m in need of some serious motivation. what keeps y’all going? i feel like i’m living just for the sake of it.
interesting analogy^ i came across this article sometime in 2018, thought i’d add a few lines of my own and share it here.
observe the images carefully. the one on the left is A and the one on the right is B.
the black box represents a person. the green ball represents grief/pain that a person undergoes. […]
i’m gonna swear a lot, bear with me. it’s 22:22. no one’s enjoying this lockdown. but i seem to like it. university’s shut down, i’m away from toxic people. i’m on my phone, laptop and ps4 for almost the whole fucking day. i’m an 18 y/o guy btw, but it’s super tough living with my family. maybe you’ve heard of a “conservative hindu” family, maybe you haven’t. i REALLY don’t like talking about my family to anyone. not even my closest friends know exactly what i’m going through. i have a strained relationship with my dad from 2011. fucker used to beat me a lot, […]