I don’t know how much longer I can do this. My first attempt was 2 years ago. Everything is so overwhelming and I want to try again right now, but what if I survive? I don’t want my therapist to leave and I probably wouldn’t see my cat for a while. Not to mention my parents would be distraught. What’s the point anymore? I have no one in my life to talk to (except my therapist) and I have no motivation to even try to get better. Someone help me :(.
darkloner74
Okay so I’ve had some alcohol. I was thinking of taking 20 pills and seeing if I feel sick. If I did start to… then I would take more in order to complete the process. I would like others opinions on whether I would feel sick or not. Idk what else to do. I know I’m going to attempt sooner or later. Why the hell not get it over and done with now?
Friday or Saturday will be the day. I have no idea why I’m posting this on here. I guess it’s almost a form of closure. I keep getting really anxious when I think about how mum (and dad) will feel when I go out and don’t come back home. I’m fighting that though, and the will to die is a lot stronger. I wish this wouldn’t hurt my parents but I know it will and I feel terrible for that, but everything is just too much.
A couple days ago I found out my mum has cancer. It’s not serious and she’s going to have surgery soon, and then 6 weeks of recovery (either chemo, radiation, or both). I was going to kill myself tomorrow or the day after, but I feel that I need to stay a little longer to help mum get through this. I was feeling… almost at peace that I didn’t have much time left, but now, I’m struggling. I don’t want to go through another 2+ months of this. I’ve made up my mind about doing it and nothing is going to change it. It’s just […]
Hi guys, I just wanted to say that I think Glamgirl went through with it (for those of you who saw any of her posts) Her ‘brother’ has commented and stuff and I thought I’d just post and say that I hope she’s in a better place and not so sad. It really sucks she did, I was kind of shocked when I noticed.
R.I.P. Glamgirl.
Here’s some links btw –
http://suicideproject.org/2011/01/doing-it-tonight/
http://suicideproject.org/2011/01/partner-in-us/
http://suicideproject.org/2011/02/theres-got-to-be-a-way/#comment-58102
Also remember, we can never really be sure that she did, since it’s based solely on her apparent brother’s comments, so she may very well still be out there, but, honestly, I doubt it.
Anyone seen him/her lately? Just wondered since I used to see quite a few posts by him. Hope you’re still with us Blackqwert :).
I was going to wait until next winter (I’m Australian and it’s summer here) to do it, but I don’t think I can. I was worried about surviving, being sent to the psych ward and forced to take off my jackets. Yeah jackets. I got a pretty bad problem with not being able to take them off, I don’t mind it though, I don’t get that hot. I’m just really fucking worried the nurses will make me coz they think I’m too hot and will overheat or whatever. God, I wish there was a surefire way I’ll die. I’m really not coping.
Pretty much all day I’ve been researching methods and LD50’s of easy-to-get poisons. My head feels like it’s gonna explode with all this information so I figured I’d ask for some help. I’ve researched loads of stuff, from eucalyptus oil to methyl salicylate, nail polish (lol…) and petrol. I checked out paracetomol but idk if i can do that again, last time i did and I failed and it wasn’t pleasant, maybe if I increased the dose it’d work. Truthfully, ODing on something won’t be the only method. I need it to work, I can’t face hospital/psych ward again. So… I plan on taking a […]
I know that I will do it eventually, I’ve already had one attempt. I’m terrified of being sent back to the psych ward I was in if I survive, which is why I must NOT survive. If I combine a few methods then it’ll (hopefully) reduce the chance of survival. I hate summer (I’m Australian). Every time I think of surviving I come close to having a panic attack, life can’t go on, but death doesn’t come so easily when you want it. This sucks. This is hell.