My family of course still dunno. I have a inkling i will be sent to hospital if they know. But what do you really feel when they find out? Or is everyone here a secret?
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I’m in this very situation where I can’t die. No money, no means and no guts. And living needs one of these three either. Ughhh…what to do? What will you do if you’re in my situation?
P.S. fuuucking evny those on their way!!!!!!!!
a thought came to me when I was in the bath just now. I wish I was a child again. I have more courage then. I didn’t stop to think whether I will succeed. I just want to die and i did wat i thought will kill. no worries or thoughts of my family suffering. everytime i decide to give myself time, to try again, i only end up hurting myself. im so tired of trying. so tired of pushing myself. so tired of hurting myself. i do alot but they are never enough. i try to smile, act happy but inside i cry and no […]
I’m back. I went away for a while, believing that things are getting better. But they are not. They just get worse. Try and try. Go out, talk to ppl. Only make me realize hw lonely I am. It’s all wrong. I wonder what went wrong. Now I’m like a zombie waiting for my time out. That urge to push me off. Keep thinking of jumping. Have nightmares of them. A premonition…my head hurts so fucking much!! Like gonna burst.Cant stand it. i wish im dead. ill be better off dead.
I hate myself, everything about myself. I can’t even find a gd thing about myself. Perhaps only my death is that tiny one good thing in life I will ever do.
Even that, I can’t do. So what do I do, hmm. Just burn my spirits slowly away in living hell. When is the end?
Ppl don’t understand my problems. They think I’m being bad. They think I’m crazy. Why can’t they fucking open their eyes and look at me? Me? Your daughter, your family, your friend. Look at me and accept me. I’m scared, can’t they see? I’m scared of what I will do. I have thoughts of […]
I feel sick and weak and tired. No one wants to talk to me. And if they do, it isn’t because they want to listen to me. I don’t even know why they are doing so. I wish everyone can just leave me alone and let me die or locked me up somewhere and leave me to die. I’m going out of control. I’m going crazy. Real crazy.
Pls don’t tell me to seek help, cause where is help?
Pls don’t tell me I will get better, cause better is what?
Pls don’t tell me I’m a coward, cause I may really surprise you.
Pls don’t tell me to talk, cause all I want […]
I heard can’t just drown in bathtub, need something to hold the head down for a while. How can I do that? If I get drunk, will it do?
I’m still considering drowning. Just thinking of doing it in a more private place.
I’m considering drowning or jumping off a building. To be honest, I live in S’pore and it’s so hard to off myself. Here, we have very strict laws on sleeping pills so I can’t get my hands on them. I have try hanging and suicide bag but my survival instincts kick in. Didn’t want to try slash my wrists cuz that will only leave scars and I’m scared of all that blood. Well, I’m a coward so I want to put myself in a situation where I can struggle and it won’t do a thing.
Well, jumping off or walking into water both will off me for […]