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Emotionally im dead right now. My mom just came into my room and asked me whats wrong because i dont “seem like myself” and i told her i was just tired.
The truth is im not tired im dead. I cant face my mothers reaction to me telling her all i can think about these days is dying. All i want to to is be happy but that seems so hard for me right to even think about right now. Im kinda in a limbo with my life right now. I dont want to live, i dont weant to die because i cant do that to […]
Well so much for my happy day. Yesterday was amazing i felt like i could conquer the world, i felt as if I could see the world in color again. Today i feel depressed, sad, alone, dying inside. I want to cut so bad. I want to take those scissors and drag it across my wrist. I dont know what to do. I miss my grandmother alot today ( she died four years ago). If i coulf just have one last moment with her i would want to say, its going t be ok nanny, you have touched so many peoples lives, more than you […]
I feel like i missed my opportunity to do it. And i can honestly say im glad. I do have those days where i want to kill myself and ive had alot of those days this summer but, what this summer has taught me is that i am loved and that i can have a bright and wonderful future if I chose to. I have to realize that i can do anything that i want all i have to do is try. I know im not better but im trying. Because i want to make something of my life. I know im going to get […]
Today is the last day of summer. The weather seems appropriate, cold windy and gloomy.
I feel like every time i post something on here im at rock bottom and you can only go up from there. But yet here i am once again, posting something new. Today is the last day of summer, and im scared because i dont know what i want to do with my life. I feel like ive lost the will to succeed in my life. I just want to fast forward like 5 years of my life. I see my self as a sad person who i desperately want to […]
I don’t know i feel like I’m lost right now. I feel as if I’m floating out in space, not able to take control of my life. I finished summer school and passed and that was such a relief. But i don’t want summer to end, because i don’t know what i want to do, my options are get a job or finish high school. And to be honest I don’t want to do either. I just don’t want to be here anymore. I think about killing myself everyday. To be honest the only thing stopping me is my parents. I cant do that to […]
About 4 years ago i lost my grandmother. I was probably the hardest thing Ive ever had to deal with. I’m still not over it and i think about her often. Shortly after that i started to cut myself. I cut myself for about a year and no one knew about it. One day i decided i needed to stop. Ive gone almost 3 year with out cutting myself and Ive been fine up until now. Lately IÂ just sad all the time, I put HUGE walls so one can get close to me and as soon as someone gets close to me i cut […]