eternaldarkness

Is the girl saying she bought one for 23K?
I so want one!

Though one needs LAND + the land has to set up somehow so you can have electricity, plumbing, etc.
Wouldn’t know how to get it all set up though even if I had a plot of land…

There’s many options in Asia for these, and I assume they help you set up the water, electricity, plumbing for you if you live there. They will ship to America it seems, but how come I’ve never heard of these capsule homes? I’ve heard of Tiny Homes here in the USA/AUS/etc. I imagine it’ll […]

I am not strong enough to deal with everything.
Not physically or emotionally strong enough.

I need HELP.
I need PHYSICAL HELP.
I need FINANCIAL HELP.
I need COMPASSION and CARE.
Someone who gives a damn about me.
Something/Some reason for me to keep plodding onward in life.

My life is so fucking difficult, I can’t take it!
And I am ex-military and I never complained about anything back then, even when things were very insanely difficult (female and at the time a measly 94lb). I was able to endure everything that came my way. But now my health is gone and I can hardly […]

TLDR- The ER Dr scheduled a CT scan for my leg edema/veins but when I was transferred to the hospital and saw the attending physician, he was a d**k and just cancelled the CT scan bc he was in a bad mood and I had the audacity to ask what the scan was for and if I needed to have the dye. Now I have to wait eons to get an appt and get seen, then once I get an appt, have to wait eons to get the scan. And by then, my symptoms would be gone, or to a point where they […]

I’m exhausted with life.
I’m tired with constantly dealing with illness and health problems.
I’m tired with life NEVER working out for me.
I’m tired with ALWAYS getting the short end of the stick in life.
I’m tired of everyone being shitty to me.

I just want an existence that isn’t constantly mired in misery. Is that too much to ask??

They are all shit. They all know I am sick, disabled, can’t walk, and even worse now after the bacterial infection fucked up my leg. I showed them pictures. It was nasty. All bc mom’s house is fucking disgusting (think hoarder house). OFC NO ONE told me how bad and how disgusting her house was BEFORE I got here. If I knew, I wouldn’t have come up here.

They KNOW it’s bad, but is anyone helping me even the LEAST bit? Fuck no.

No one offering to drive me to dr’s offices, to grocery store, to drop off food. Hell, […]

Is this the reason for apathy these days?
Tragedy overload…

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/a3MJG3wuO_M
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Wow, and here I thought it was just a game I used to play at meetups. It’s crazy what this game demonstrates.

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Completely agree with the guy speaking @4:00.
Especially at the @4:25 mark when he starts talking about “why bother.”

What you do think?
There’s many Gen Z’ers on SP. I myself am a old millennial. And we got screwed bad as well. Graduated right into a recession, pay for almost all jobs cut across the board by a whopping 15-25% on average, then had another recession, and pay was cut yet again and workload doubled yet again. 1 person now does the job of 3 ppl, with no benefits, no job security, and yet we’re supposed to work like a dog and be […]

i wonder what it’s like to be happy and loved…and taken care of and not always worry about things like starving or going hungry, or always being cold bc we had no heat, or not having money to buy necessary things like shoes that don’t have holes in them.

i wonder what it’s like to actually be loved and accepted as a human being, as i’ve never had that as a child. to be loved and accepted with no conditions, like just being born and loved. that is what MOST kids had, but i didn’t get jack shit. no love, no acceptance, only […]

I just don’t have any hope left.
I don’t believe in the pot of gold behind the rainbow.
There is no rainbow in my life.

It’s been DECADES of hell.
If I were young and healthy, like many of the youngin’s on this site, (17-25 yo), it may be a different story. But when half your life is already over, and most of it has been hell on Earth, I can’t believe the bullshit ppl say when they say “you had a lot of bad things happen which means you are BOUND to have good things happen soon.” That is the biggest crock of […]

I had to go to ER and my infection was so bad they admitted me in-patient to the hospital for 5d. Well all my horrible health issues aside, which are super bad, that aside….I get slapped with a $1632 deductible, just for coming into the ER. How lovely. This is how “great” America is. -_-

you’re so jaded about life that nothing interests you or motivates you anymore?

There is no such thing as meritocracy- hard work and intelligence don’t get you anywhere or rewarded in this life. It’s all who you know and how much you bootlick.

It just demotivates you from doing anything because everything is either meaningless or unfair.

Few jobs pay well- at least the jobs you can get without having to go for another degree or go waste more money.

Jobs/Career/Corporations = all bullshit
People = disappointing.

Most humans are selfish, don’t actually care, and won’t have your back when you need it. Sure, it’s […]

This video gets it spot on.
And anyone wonders WHY ppl are so damn depressed and suicidal?
No pill from a psychiatrist is going to fix economic strife.

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This YT short popped up on my feed. It’s so wholesome and shows how loving the father is, to do all this for his daughter. People like him are awesome. But I feel so sad when I watch videos like this. Or see this kind of stuff IRL. Same with loving mother-daughters I see when I’m outside. I feel so sad bc I never knew what parental love was, from EITHER my father or my mother. They were both horrible people, devoid of love and care.

Anyhow, enjoy this ‘wholesome’ video…
Oh how I wish I had anything close […]

Everyone is all “Happy New Year!” and shit, but how is a “new” year any different for some of us here? It’s the same ol’ bullshit crap life. -_-

Everything else in my life has fallen apart or is non-existent.

No love, No friendship, No Internal Peace, No External Peace,
Low in Health, Low in Money,
High in Pain, High in Depression.

Just wish I never fucking existed. FML. Just FML.

hate, hate, hate…hate, hate, hate…
double hate
loathe entirely!

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/Fs5hZIQ6RQc
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Why “life is so wonderful”?
Wonderful for WHO?

Just bc YOU have a great life doesn’t mean life is great or wonderful for someone else.

People just can’t see anything beyond themselves.
Selfish idiots.

(btw, this is post is about OTHER ppl constantly telling me how “life is so wonderful” whenever I tell them how depressed I am or how hard my life is. they always exclaim how wonderful life is, and I’m like, yeah, for who, YOU?)

I fucking HATE my shit ass family. It’s xmas eve. NO ONE invited me to Thanksgiving or Xmas.

I have an infection on my arms and legs and can’t walk and NO ONE is fucking helping me. I can barely get dressed let alone walk. Not to grocery store, not anything. I am fucking suffering and NO ONE even bothers to ask how I’m doing, let alone help me in any way or shape. FUCK EVERYONE. I am DONE with them ALL.

Is there any wonder WHY I am angry as shit at life? I’m TIRED of […]