Some of you guys might remember me, I was supposed to be dead beginning of this year but I keep changing my schedule, I keep changing the date to another one, this is bad, really bad? Honestly I wonder why most of us cease with this issue? It only went worse from the date I was supposed to be dead. Society got me destroyed, technically I broke up with most of my friends, including my best friend just a week ago. Two weeks ago I finally managed to tell my crush about my feelings, which well didn’t end up that well because it turns out […]
I cant reply for some reason, again…
“With days going on, I learn more and more about myself.
I had it hard in my life. I still am alone”
This left me shocked. You know, our brain decides to shut down any bad memory and throw it into our inconsciousness thus developing who we really are. The more you dwell on it the more the more you remember everything bad that has you went through.
I remember thinking I went through a normal life, but then I started remembering of being bullied, massively going through physical and menyal abuse by my parents and on and on… It is like […]
Apparently, for some reason I again can’t reply to anyone, I don’t know what I’ve done here to get my account fucked up that much!? Eitherway I replied to ur latest post spectralgiraffe and this is it.
“I completely wholeheartedly agree with you. Thing is being emotional was never an answer to this world, if you want to succeed, reach a point of happiness you should be cold. Being cold as far as I think is the best way to strive, thus us who are emotional tend to suffer from everything because we do take a really close look into everything, and that everything is very […]
Let’s just say that any method I tried to get the supplies ended up shit, I paid for the easier parts and never managed to get the hard part (stupid from my side).
So I’m just gonna surrender and go for pain.
I was getting better but then, shit happened this person I thought I was close with ended up talking shit behind my back, sorting out I’m clingy annoying and shit in general.
EVEN THOUGH that person knew of my mental state and suicidal thoughts (my mistake) I’d love some feedback. I’m going to skip school tomorrow as if to avoid… (this happened 2 days […]
Well,until now I’ve been trying to find a peaceful painfree method which I rarely had any luck with. Now to get to the point what happened today definitely pushed me so hard I’ll be gone very soon no matter how painful.
Do you know what sucks? When every belief you had in someone, the trust you gave them comes back to bite you so hard that you’re left shocked.
I trusted this girl so bad, at first I had feelings for her but then we became “best friends” or so I thought we were,I trusted her a lot I mean that much thst I told her about […]
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Some of you might remember me, I was really active a few months ago.
I mentioned in a post that I’d be gone after new year, but here I am writing a post here.
I’ve had a really busy schedule, and me being the lazy person I am didn’t like using that bit of free time I had to actually go out and look for supplies that I’d need to…well.
Let’s skip a few days further after asking around for around 2 weeks around december my friend told me he knewa location, I finally got myself ready to go and look for them, but i didnt find the […]
Thank you a lot, but I don’t think I’d be able to do anything, I just hope I’ll find something to make it quick.
What I like on myself is my ability to acknowledge my flaws, which are a lot, and to understand what a bad person I am.
Help me? Any admin I cant reply to any post at all
Ok so basically I’m a coward, the classic methods are to much for me to take it and I don’t think I can go through with them. I had a great way to go basically peaceful so good so far but since my country is so left behind most of these very common items can’t be found here and it turns out they are not so common after all.
I’m going to try and gather the items by the end of january, if nothing comes out if it well I’ll go classic.
Also the moment I got serious about suicide I fucked my life 10x more, because […]
Well, uh I don’t know where to begin really. Here goes nothing.
I’m 17 years old, male by the way. I’ve not gone through much but that small, meaningless actions I went through shifted me into who I am today and brought me up to wander along the idea of suicide.
Now let’s get to the very beginning, ever since the first grade I had this cousin of mine who was the same age of mine, and our families decided to set us up on the same class.
She, yup I know, well she’s been a pain in ass ever since the first grade, hell I […]
It didn’t help that I’m going through some shit right now, but I was day dreaming at work an hour ago and then my mind went upon the fact and remembered that I’ve got scammed over $1,000 csgo skins and I’ve lost another $4,000 gambling, and oh does that suck.
But well you know what they say, fuck it.
Look what youtube brought me to.
It’s really interesting how we crave what we can’t have, we crave more and more.
I was fine for a week or so, two weeks I was moving forward and I tried to get my mind off suicide (it didn’t work out that much).
Now I did a lot of things for my crush, and yes it felt good spending energy on something and doing good so I could make someone happy, but I know how much it hurts when people don’t appreciate having you, as if you are replaceable and someone just purely common when on the other side that person matters the world to you.
She […]
Well let’s see. I personally ended up reading a lot of suicidal experiences and I can tell that my issues are nothing considered to what others have gone through but I guess we all have a breaking point.
Now let’s see, I’m a 17 years old male, who by the way is really short thin and very weak, you could literally take me for a 10-12 years old guy.
Now other than that I had an accident, actually a couple of them, my front tooth is gone and I can’t get one implanted until the age of 20, I have a broken nose and I’m ugly in […]