Guys, this will be my last time visiting this site. I committed suicide yesterday, overdosing of paracetamol and naphthalene balls do worked, I felt very weak yesterday and fainted, at that point of time I am so scared, feeling so hopeless, I realised that I don’t wanna to die anymore, I missed my family so I called the ambulance. The after period was a toture, I am feeling so weak, I am conscious yet I can’t feel any energy. My tears kept on dropping as I saw my family’s hurtful faces. Regretted, I really do. I promised them and myself to carry on with my […]
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My mum just scolded me yesterday for being so depressed over my skin conditions, she said I was hurting her, she wished that I can be happy like before, I was about to tell her, I wasn’t happy in the past but was acting “happy” but I ended up saying nothing. Because I knew no matter what, she won’t understand how I feels, how I feels to be inferior for years, how I yearn to be pretty for at least 1 day, how I am lost in my life’s direction. I have no self esteem, I have nightmares, I cried, I am fully depressed, I […]
Guys, I am scared. I can’t sleep in the night and have been crying from day to night, my mind is restless. I have been swallowing pills, drinking shampoo, cutting myself, the urge to jump down from a building is so strong, but my mum’s devasted face is haunting me, I don’t want my family to live in guilt. What should I do? I am so scared, so scared that my life will be ended by myself.
I knew that god is never fair but I didn’t expect that it can be unfair to such a great extent. It can grant a person happiness and send someone to hell. My life is a disaster to start with, from the day I was born, I was fated to lead a terrible life. I was born with physical disability, my left ear was deaf. But I didn’t placed that in my heart, I still have my right ear. Yet god didn’t let me off, it granted me a terrible childhood’s experience, this experience made me feels that I am a shameless girl and I […]