Its funny, because as soon as I cut, the tears stop. I have no need to cry anymore. Until tommorow.
A couple days ago, my sister found out that I cut. I confronted yahoo answers for it and I got a negative reply. They told me that I cut because I was only seeking attention. They said my “selfishness” was hurting everyone around me. I never meant for anyone around me to find out. I am cutting to cope with my feelings (its bad I know) but it was NOT for attention. I feel so much guilt when I look at my sister now. I feel so bad that she found out that I cut. I have desperatly been searching for a better alternative. I […]
Im not sure whether or not I still have depression because I stopped crying and feeling numb all the time. However, maybe its because I got out of school and I dont have to see anyone anymore. I still cut and think about cutting everyday. I still like depressing music. Im not sure if im better or not.
I have no really good friends and im sick of it. I try to see what the problem is and the only thing I can think of is that I dont “pop out” like everyone else does. Everyone has something special about them. Not me, Im just a boring, depressed person who dosent have friends. I dont blame people that they dont like to talk to me. Also, everyone that I know has had at least 1 boyfriend before, but me. I know im not popular but seriously. I feel unloved. It feels like I have a dark pit in my heart because Ive been […]
So, I have nowhere to rant so im just gonna do it here. Excuse my incorrect grammar and spelling or confusing stuff. Here goes. Please stick with me.
Everyone who I thought was my friend just ignores me. Im never invited anywhere when all my best friends go out together. People never text me, I have to text them first, and they just ignore me. I’m fucking sick of trying to make everyone happy when no one gives a shit about me. Thats one of the reasons why I have depression. Now let me tell about other stuff.
Im not sure how this all started off. I […]