As I talked about in my earlier post, last week I had my audition for the musical. Well yesterday morning I went to my school, despite not having to, and found out which role I got. I didn’t get a lead role again this year… I’m an ancestor. The only good thing is there are two types of ancestors, one with names and a group without. I’m lucky enough to have a name but… I’m just so upset that I won’t be able to do the meet and greet this year. Not once was I able to have a lead role. Not once will I […]
I love theater. Â I love musicals. Â I love singing and acting. Â So what do I do? Â I take part in my school’s musicals every year. Â We had our auditions for next years play today and I think I messed everything up. Â After I did my lines they told me I did a good job but then came the singing… Â I’ve listened to the song so many times I have it memorized! Â I’ve worked so hard yet during my song they had me stop early! Â They gave us a stopping point so the audition didn’t take too long and I didn’t even get to that point! […]
I haven’t posted in a while… Â I guess thats because I haven’t had anything to post about. Â Sure I’ve felt like shit basically every day since my last post but I didn’t know why. But today? Â Today is different. Â Why? Â You make ask. Â Because these two girls in my class decided to treat me like shit, but then again what else is new. Â Anyway over the year we get a weekly packet that we do for homework and a daily sheet we have to do everyday. Â At the end of the year, (Tuesday) we have to turn in a binder with certain things from through […]
I didn’t think I’d end up posting on this site again… Â I’m the type of person who takes everything someone says seriously, even if its someone I don’t know I take what they say to heart. Â I’m not going to go into too much detail about what started this but I’ll say enough to explain what I’m doing. Â I’ll admit my last post was… Â well not something you’d expect to find on here but what can I tell you? Â I’m an emotional person and I was panicking, I needed a way to let all of my feelings out. Â Which is sort of how I […]
Next week is prom and I’m going with my boyfriend. Â I know thats great and all but after, hes spending the night at my house so he doesn’t have to drive back to his house. Â Cause of the distance from mine to his. Â Cool, right? Â Except the thing is… Â I DON’T WANT HIM TO!!! Â I don’t know why but I just don’t. Â I hate texting, I always have! Â Its even to the point where I don’t want to text my boyfriend! Â I don’t know much about love but he told me he loves me last night and we already started kissing and I’m not sure […]
I found these well going through the documents on my Ipad… Â I know they probably aren’t any good so I just decided to post them on here, at least then I’ll be using them for something. Â Again, sorry if they are total crap I wrote them when I was really upset and struggling and yeah…
When I’m Alone
When your around, my face is empty of emotion
When they surround me, I only show the lies that they want to hear
When I’m alone?
When I’m alone is when the truth comes out
When I’m alone the tears last forever
When I’m alone the darkness never ends
When I’m alone I’m weak
When I’m […]
I have always loved school. Â When I was a little girl I had a ritual, I would watch Martina McBride’s music video for Concrete Angel before school. Â I also have eleven cousins and only two of which are older than me. Â Because of this I’ve always wanted to help people, especially children. Â It’s always been my goal. Â I go to a special school that helps prepare students for a certain career that they are thinking of going into. Â I go for Childhood Education and Human Services, and I LOVE the class. Â My teachers have even told me that I’m the best student out of the […]
I haven’t posted for a few days because I thought I was doing okay. Â I was able to buy Garry’s Mod for my computer and that seemed to distract me from a lot of things until yesterday. Â I know it shouldn’t be that big of a deal to me but it just… It just is… Â I was playing Prop Hunt with my friend and there was this kid, like thirteen years old who just kept repeating, “Wow, your stupid.” Â And other things like that. Â So a bunch of people tried to tell him to shut up, I kept quiet because thats what I do. Â But […]
Okay so this has been bugging me for a while now…. Â I don’t really have people to talk to about it so I guess this is my best place to get it out.
When I was in elementary school I was exactly the same as I am now, passive aggressive though it was probably worse back then. Â I didn’t talk to anyone and I was super shy. Â Around third grade I ended up befriending this girl, lets call her L. Â So L ended up becoming my best friend. Â But around the end of fifth grade she started ignoring me. Â She ignored me for the rest […]
I don’t really know what I’m doing here… Â Am I just seeking ways to escape reality? Â Or am I just trying to find someone who will listen? Â Maybe both, I don’t know. Â But what I do know is that I’m tired of being invisible to people. Â My main issue is I’m a passive aggressive type of person, so I won’t fight back if someone picks on or bullies me. Â Which is also an issue because, since I’m passive aggressive people like to pick on me. Â I’ve been abandoned by my friends so many times that its hard for me to get close to people and […]