I’m really struggling to cope at the moment. My car’s MOT is literally up in 2 days. I have to get it sorted because I need my car. Yet, I can’t call a garage to book it in. I’m not scared or being wimpy. Every time I think about doing it, I feel paralysed. It is like there is a lump of asteroid in my throat, going down onto my chest and stopping me from breathing and swallowing.
I can’t stand the thought of going out, having to talk to people. I couldn’t even go shopping, I had to order it online. I’m good to go out into the garden; I like gardening. I can have a word with the people next door. But the thought of going further makes me feel sick and shaky.
Behold! I’m still suffering from unrequited love too. I recently had 3 dreams about them, on 3 different nights. Scratch that, 3 different mornings because I can’t sleep until about 05:00 until 11:00.