I cant do anything nothing helps me I can not concentrate on anything I try to focus my energy on things but I physically cant because these current and frequent feelings of sadness are like tsunamis crashing down on me drowning me you can either ride the wave or drown I seem to always be drowning. I use to love so much things I dont have any interest in anything at all I have no feelings these moods I go through snap so quick I cant control them more low than high in order to get uptoo that high peak I need to be doing […]
Kjay
I am such a lazy lover now. The failure is strangling my heart what I mean by this is im trying my hardest and no matter what no one is ever pleased why it gets to me is because of how they act around me and the comments they make like step the fuck back man i’m on my own time get with it or get out i wish i had that confidence to be honest but I dont because I have no where else to go or no one can offer enough support to help me out. I need a job and to make […]
I tried talking it out with him we never get anywhere I swear same old shit always happens. He is suppose to be rocking with me be my home boy and ride or die with me but his family seems to be first priority when they will kick him out in a heart beat for being out at night he is 22 but religion is to extreme along with control of his parents like they should trust their son to be able to male the right decisions he does bad because he knows no one has faith him so he thinks like whats the point […]
My life in a nutshell currently. I live with my partners family they are muslim I converted to islam to stay here because I had a baby his family had more room at their house and support as his mum stays home so it seemed like the ideal place to be right. The thing that gets me in the dumps is that I have caused more trouble here then I expected ever since day 1 his family had expectations of me and had their mond set that i was like every other white girl, they are very judgemental towards white people. They always made home […]