Well today is the day, im finally leaving this horrible life of mine. I have discovered somethings recently that have become the straw that broke the camels back. So im taking care of the problem, and that problem is me. You can call me selfish, i dont care, i know i am. If its selfish to end my life to end the pain and lonliness i have been dealing with my whole life, then so be it. No one will miss me, because i dont give a shit about anyone anymore. People say that killing yourself is wasting god’s gift. Well i dont believe that […]
This is what my soul looks like.
All alone, heart broken, and cries only blood because real tears stop flowing years ago.
I got this tattoo today because tattoos are my version of cutting myself. All my tattoos have blood in them because i have a phobia of blood, and they are all dark, because well i only see this world as dark. This is the smallest one i have, but i think i like this one the […]
Ok time for me to rant like a ***** again to people who’s lives are 20x worse then mine. But i have no one else to turn to because everyone in my life is against me.
So the reason im at the breaking point (as some of you might have read already) is because i confessed to a girl i work with how i felt about her 2 months ago. She told me that she just wants to be friends, but i always had the sneaking suspicion that she was full of shit, and just didnt want to tell me the truth because we work together. […]
I cried for the first time in almost 10 years. It was only like 2 or 3 drops, but for someone like me who thought his tear ducts dried out years ago, it was a real relief. I have been contemplating suicide for years now. But only recently have i reached my breaking point. I have no real friends, only acquaintances. Im a 20 year old virgin, who only had one girlfriend, but i never met her in person. Had my heart broken more times then i can count. I learn the hard way that nice guys finish last, because im hopelessly to nice for […]
Everyday of my life is to please everyone else. But for every fake smile i put on my face to fool the stupid people i see, the more i die inside. I cant take it anymore. Being the “nice guy” never helped me with anything. I always have girls tell me “You’re way to nice”, and i ask “Is there something wrong with that?”, and they always say “Nah, i just wish i had a guy like you”. Well why dont they ever want me? They always say they want a nice guy, but then they go after the big douche bag that treats her […]
I’ve come to the conclusion that im a complete waste of space, and i want to eliminate this pointless shitstain of an existence i call a life from the face of the earth.
My whole life i was labeled ugly and worthless, and any word that can add the prefix “un” would describe me. Im unathletic, untalented, unattractive, unimportant, unmotivated, uninteresting, unappealing, basically anything you can think of.
I grew up with my father always angry, and telling me i was a worthless human being. He would say it was his way of building me up to be a man, but all it did was make me […]