Lawli

(Context: I’m an 18-year-old girl, so I’m legally an adult, and am in my last year at school, next year I’m not going to university but am unsure about my plans).

I’ve been feeling really down lately, like to the point where I’ve been considering suicide. I feel so stupid all the time like I’m a lost cause that’s always going to be useless and there’s no way to fix it.

Home has been really hard at the moment, or for a while actually. My parents are constantly angry at me and giving me lectures, I never really know how to handle it, I just don’t like being at […]

when they say they want to die, they are literally depressed all the time and have been for a very long time, things just get worse for them and they are talking to me about it but I don’t know what to say? Right now I am only in the position to talk to them through social media as well…

I feel like I don’t have much time

It’s been a long time since I’ve been here, a really long time it feels like, although it mustn’t have been over a year ago. Regardless, I am still sad, nothing has changed, and although I’m trying to fight this sadness, there are some thoughts that I have been having for a while, and I was going to write them in my “diary”, however I’m decided to write on here instead in hopes to get some outside help or opinions on my current feelings and problems.

Right now, where I am now, I am happy – with my friends who I have recently ended up with, I […]

((16 yr girl)).

Over the past week or so I have felt terrible. I’ve been zoned out at school and missed half the stuff we were taught, I OD on painkillers and got really sick and I’ve pulled away from my friends slightly. I think this is the worst I have felt in a long time and I want to kill myself so bad, but I haven’t. To make it worse it’s Mother’s Day in my country, and I have nothing to give my Mum, I could have given her art but last time I did it sat on the bench collecting dust and I told […]

Okay, so I know this isn’t usually the type of stuff that people post about on this site but I really need some advice. (Btw, I’m a 16yr girl, because people usually ask).

So, I have done this sport for a long time and I have been competing across the country and it’s a partner sport so I need a partner to do it. Anyways I do it with one of my oldest friends but the other day my Dad got an email from one of her parents saying that she didn’t want to do it anymore. Now don’t get me wrong, if she doesn’t want to do […]

(16, Female, because people ask).

gawd I just want to cut myself, I hate myself so much. I feel so guilty and I know I have no reason to feel guilty but I do. Sometimes I feel guilty for other people and I feel guilty when I can’t work something out, and whenever I make a mistake and just always now. I need to punish myself so cutting myself feels so good.

Today me and my friend were taking a test for a sport that we do and while we where waiting for the results I was talking, I can’t remember what I was talking about but […]

I have this full-length mirror in my bedroom, every time I look in it I hate myself, every time I don’t look at it I think about how bad I look. I hate myself so much now, I don’t want to go outside, even though I stay in my room I change my clothes like three times even though I don’t even leave my house. I got a haircut the other day, I hate the way I look, I hate how I look in all my clothes. It’s not as though I can change the way I look either, this sucks. I’m trying to loose muscle […]

So confused, god, I just have to stop thinking, but I can’t, there is so much to think about.

Honestly I’m so tired though. So sad, I feel sick. But honestly I do feel sick, sick as in dizzy, kinda dizzy or maybe light headed? I don’t know, kinda like I could faint. Not hungry either, I mean in a way I am hungry but then I take one bite of food and I feel sick of it.

Anyways back too being emotionally tired, it’s not really bad kinds of emotions, like i’m sad, but happy, but I can’t concentrate on the things that are making me […]

I don’t want to hear any “I don’t like myself”‘ or “there’s nothing good about myself” answers either!

(Before I start; I’m 15 years old; 16 in July, also a girl).

So before today my depression had been good. I almost thought it had maybe completely gone. That was until tonight, I was talking to my parents and I don’t want to repeat what they said but it just makes me hate them. They make me hate myself and feel anxious which is why I try not to hang around them but I live with them so I can’t completely ignore them. After I managed to get away from them my dad said something as I was leaving that made me want to kill […]

Anyone know the side affects?