lxmyrick

Hey guy, how everyone been?

I haven’t been doing the greatest.  I thought I was doing well, but I guess not.  AM a very logical person, and when ever I have a problem, I go to the internet for help for facts for support.  Well I leaned that an average person can last 3 weeks without food, and an average healthy adult should each 2000-2500 calories while burning most of it.  This could cause people to lose weight.  But the thing is that I have been taking it to far and I can’t stop.  I only eat about 1000 calories a day, and burn then and […]

I know that this sounds strange and I don´t know how to completely explain this, but  I have to get it off my mind.  So I am not a normal person when it comes to fearing things, my deepest fear is myself.  The reason I fear myself is because I hide from my dark side.  So I try to keep myself active in things and to keep myself from relaxing, because if I do I think about things and I start thinking about depression and suicide.  And this happens a lot.   I also fear myself because I am capable to commit suicide, meaning that I […]

So I have been having some bad days.  I don’t mean like the day was bad, but for some random reason I started to feel sad, depressed, not hungry, and I don’t know why.  Everything was going good and it just randomly started to get worst.  The worst part is that I feel alone.  And yes I see a bunch of people around school and places I go, but I still feel so alone and I feel like I can’t talk to anyone.  And to make it worst is that I am always wearing a mask because I fear that if I showed how I […]

For all of use in college, high school, or even middle school,  this is probably the hardest time of the years.

I am SO stressed out right now.  Iget about 4 hours of sleep with no caffeine, boring classes with everything being crammed inside my head.  And most of the things we learn in high school is never used unless for a job.  I am so stressed like I said.  I have no idea on how to calm down about this stress.  For any of those who a good in school or know how to mange stress, can you give me some tips.

This is a hard topic for me to talk about.  I have never told anyone before, but I need to know.  I noticed that I have been looking online a lot for pornography and sex videos, and I have had sex, but I dream about it a lot.  I am a teenage guy and I am wondering if it is normal or if I do it for self harm.  I am started to get blisters and a rash around my area and it is painful, but I can’t stop.  I what to have sex, but since I can’t, I feel sad and lonely.  Is there […]

I never understood when it comes to being selfish?  Yes I understand when someone is greedy and and don’t share anything.  But  when someone is sad, depressed and suicidal; everyone says you are selfish even though it isn’t our fault.  So it makes no sense that people say that we are selfish, but we are not to blame.  And it’s our own body, if we have no debts to pay and don’t have anything that has to be paid for, we should have the right to do what we want with our body.

I bet a lot of people have heard of the game “Life”.

It gives you all the happy things in life like a family and a great career, and a great life.  But the issue is that is really life.  In real life you will lose loved ones, you will have issues with money, you have good times and bad times; but the game “Life” is all good things in life.  I wish they made a version of this game of reality.  One where you can learn relate to the game, not a pretend game.

Why is high school so importent.  I plan to go to a tech school to learn certain skills, but me learning how to talk to someone from another country doesn’t matter.  For example, I have to be active, so I can”t be an office all day as a job and my learning algabra 2 doesn’t hep me reach my goal of being in and active job.  Another example is that I want to be a medical doctor, but me learning how to paint doesn’t help.  So I wish high school wasn’t required to get a career because a lot the thing I have learn or […]