Martin1987

I don’t have any friends, so when my parents die of old age. I will be punching out my own ticket out of this horrible world.

I want to end this life so badly, and leave this awful world once and for all, but I’m afraid of ending up in an even worse place.
I know that my life WILL end up by the means of suicide one day, and when that day comes while I’m dying there will be always this fear present in my thoughts. The fear of ending in a bad place.

Please write me your opinion in the comment section on what you would’ve done if you were me.
I am currently aged 34, depressed ever since the age of 16. In all my of lifetime I never had a job (I have no skills or talents whatsoever), nor did I ever had a love life (women never liked me). In these 34 on this earth I barely had any friends (currently I have none). I am currently living with my parents who are quite old and they will probably leave me soon due to their old age. When they are gone and when the savings […]

Do some of you visit cemeteries whenever you feel very depressed. I tend to visit them when there aren’t many people around. Every time I walk thru the cemetery I cannot help but envy the people who have already passed away, and I’m glad that those people aren’t suffering any more.

I started a new hobby recently -drone flying, and this is a video I took few days ago of the cemetery I usually visit. It’s the largest cemetery in the country in which I live in (Macedonia). I would appreciate it very much if you please tell me in the comments what do you think […]

I can not and will not ever believe that God, that energy, would send a suicidal soul to hell. If a person commits suicide, it is because they are in so much pain, drowning in sadness and struggle. Why would God punish someone who’s hurting so badly already. I agree and believe that with all my heart.

When I’m sad I often go to some desolated place far away from everybody. Sit down there, and all I do is think about what a big screw-up my life is. Anyone here want’s to sit next to me?

There is so much violence, so much hate, so much suffering, so much greed and so little love in this world. I can’t wait for the day I finally leave this horrible place.

Ever since I was just 6 years old (when I was a first-grader in school) I knew that I will never fit in this world, because the other children were very cruel and violent and I wasn’t like them at all. There isn’t any room for emotional people in this world.

On top of my ongoing depression, the last thing I needed was this happening to me.
Let me describe what this unpleasant memory is all about:
I was 6 years old and me and my family were visiting my grandmother’s house. There was a girl in the neighborhood who was the same age as me. I was playing with her and I behaved nicely and politely with her. For some reason after we played for a while she started avoiding me and even said to me: I don’t love you, I love your brother. And she went and sat down next to my brother who […]

About me:
-31 year old male

-Never had a girlfriend in my entire life, nor have I ever felt affection by a woman

-Never had any friends in my entire life. Although I always treated people nice, for some reason they all have been avoiding me.

-Not good at anything, nor do I have any skills at all. Still living with my parents, and being jobless my entire life.

-On top of depression I have health issues that get worse with each passing year

I’m so tired of my life. I desperately need it to end. The only reason that stops me from killing myself are my parents. I don’t […]

For some reason in the entire duration of my life girls never liked me . This was one of the main contributor for my depression getting worse. Animals sometimes ease my depression, but not always.
It sucks to be alone, forever alone, never feeling someone else’s love and have a depression on top of it all.

This image explains it all. Is anyone else here in the same boat as me?

If anyone had a suicide-attempt related NDE (Near death experience) please be kind and share it with us?

Some time ago here on SP I’ve met a girl called Emily. When I’ve met her she felt very sad and suicidal. I did my best to comfort her and stop her for committing suicide. Since we were 1500 Km from each other, I could only help her with my emails (which I wrote maybe 30-40 in total).
Luckily my messages prevented her from killing herself, but now when I am in the greatest need for a female companionship because I feel extremely lonely, she won’t even respond to my messages and I know for sure that she’s seen them 🙁
Yeah, some people can be very ungrateful.

Today while I was having one of my usual naps during daytime,  a scary shadowy being grabbed my neck and it was choking me. While that scary being was choking me I was completely breathless. I fought in my sleep (dream) and when I woke up I was completely breathless.

I was wondering. Did something similar happened to anybody else?

The scary being looked a lot like this.

Almost 30 years old and never had a girlfriend. Heck, I’ve never even met a girl that showed just a littlebit of interes in me.

I guess some people aren’t meant to find love during their lifetime.

This makes my soul so sad, I have no words to describe it.

Hi everybody. I post very rarely on this site and I’m sure that 99% of you don’t know me, but nevertheless I want to make you all  feel better. (At least I’m willing to try to make you feel better)
If you have 1 hour to spare, I would highly recommend that you watch this documentary. After watching it, I felt much better than before. This documentary gave me hope that things will get better someday.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=z56u4wMxNlg

If someone watches it or a watches a part of it, please share his/hers opinion in the comment section. It will be much appreciated.

Just a random story I wrote during one of my many sleepless nights. So here it goes:

The day began just like any other day before it, but the events that were going to happen during that day would have made it a very unusual one. I got out and went to the riverside to take a walk as I often do. I like that place because it is a desolated one. There isn’t a living soul in a 1 mile radius. I like being alone because most of the people in my life treated me like shit, so i do my best at avoiding everyone. […]