I feel like god is mocking me and I hate my life
noah5678
How in the world do people make it through their ENTIRE lives without ending it?
Okay, so 2018 is almost over now. I have came to the decision that if things are not even a little bit better by 2020, I am going to take my own life with NO hesitation.
I just want people to understand one thing. Just because something works for one person, doesn’t mean it’s going to work for everybody. Like I am constantly hearing people telling me to appreciate all the good things about my life and I’m sick and tired of hearing shit like that all the time. Because believe it or not I’ve tried that multiple times in my life and it barely makes a difference in how I think or feel.
Like it just doesn’t make sense; like people tell me that, as if it’s going to fix my anxiety, my depression, my lack of motivation, my lack […]
I don’t plan on celebrating the holidays this year. Also I just don’t understand why the last ten years of my life had to be absolute garbage, when those were years that were supposed to be some of the best years of my life.
All Christmas time does is make me suicidal; same with my birthdays, which only get more depressing every year.
New Year’s Eve only makes me even more depressed, because all I can think of is how shitty the year was just like the other last several years of my life, and how it was nothing but the same shit nearly every day; and also the fact that there’s one more year down the drain that I can never get back.
I don’t plan on celebrating any of those this year, by the way.
I’m so confused. I just don’t get it. Teenage years/younger years are supposed […]
I hold in so many emotions all the time. I have been holding so much anger inside me and I just can’t do it anymore. So tonight I’ve been yelling and banging my head against my bed. I have been so angry tonight that it’s actually been hard to breathe. This is what happens when I’ve been holding in this much anger for this amount of time.
Been sitting here crying as I’m typing this. What’s the point in even trying anymore? Life just gets more and more pointless and meaningless every day.
is that NOBODY who commits suicide should be discriminated against/ talked down upon. Anyone else agree?
I personally don’t believe having suicidal thoughts makes you a bad person; I don’t even think going through with suicide makes someone a bad person either.
I honestly don’t think I’ll ever understand why people want to live so crazy long in this world, like up to age 100. IT JUST MAKES NO SENSE. I literally see no point even living past age 30.
I honestly believe by life will NEVER have meaning. Even if most of my problems went away FOR GOOD; nothing, and I mean NOTHING could EVER make life enjoyable for me.
Like, even when I’m not feeling sad or depressed, life is still never very fun or enjoyable for me. I truly believe that even if I start to feel less miserable one day; nothing will EVER be […]
Almost just actually took my own life. I was holding a knife in my hand, and wanted to do it, but then I thought about how unbearably painful it would be. ONLY thing stopping me.
I’m done trying. To make things better. I hate my life so much words can’t even begin to explain it. Nothing I ever do works. Even if it does, so what; I ALWAYS start feeling like shit again at some point.
no im not really suicidal anymore but I truly believe it would have been better if I was never born at all.
fuck god. He’s nothing but a douchebag with no life who has nothing better to do than fuck the lives of innocent people and fuck then all over.
seriously why should I even try anymore when nothing matters and nothing ever gets better. What’s the […]
Haven’t been suicidal in about four months, I’d say. Finally starting to feel suicidal again for the first time in months. Any time i start to feel good, it NEVER lasts for long. I’ve finally realized that feelings like happiness and relief are only temporary, unfortunately, and that feelings of anger, sadness, depression, grief, and anxiety will always be much more prevalent in my life.
I honestly CANNOT BEAR the thought of having to be alive until I’m at least 80 YEARS OLD; probably even OLDER.
I’m only 21 now, in case your wondering.
Here is a list of problems I deal with on a daily basis that control me in my everyday life:
– [ ] Anxiety
– [ ] OCD
– [ ] depression
– [ ] Aspergers syndrome
– [ ] Lack of motivation
– [ ] Perfectionism
– [ ] Not liking who I am as a person
– [ ] Lack of interests
– [ ] Anger/irritability
– [ ] Negative/unrealistic mindset
– [ ] Mental/physical […]
God is a fucking dumbass for creating us. Especially without even giving us a choice. Then saying you can’t even end your own life?????? What was the point of creating humans anyway? Without even giving them a CHOICE????? And then basically saying you’re FORCED to live????? Seems kinda pointless to me. Also seems pointless to create someone just to make them suffer, especially as much as I have.
Noah, even though god has been a complete DICK to you in the last ten years, he still loves you VERY much. As do many many MANY people. And just because he’s been a complete dick to you in your life, does NOT mean he will guaranteed ALWAYS treat you this way. Yes, he will probably continue to treat you this way for quite a long ass time, but the idea of him treating you this way FOREVER, is unimaginable. Things will very most likely be better ONE DAY, but not for a long long long LONG time.
Also, you remember your plan right? You […]
Anyone else agree?
Would any of you feel pissed/ungrateful if you tried to end your life/almost died, and someone saved you or you didn’t end up dying or your attempt eas unsuccessful? Because I certainly would.
Severe ocd, severe anxiety, severe depression, heat flashes EVERY DAY, lack of motivation/absolutely NO interest in anything anymore except my cell phone and music, constant suicidal thoughts, intense self-hate, occasional lonliness, and sadness
Ive heard this many times, but WHY should I have to continue to stay alive????????? What, just for others and their benefits? Yeah, no fucking thanks. I’m outta here in approximately a year and a half if nothing changes.
That I am going to end my GOD DAMN FUCKING miserable life on January 1, 2020 because it sucks MOTHER FUCKING ***** SUCKING COCK!!!!!!
I am sick of my life ONLY getting worse and almost NEVER getting ANY better!
I am now 21 years old. I have wanted to kill myself since I was about 11 years old. I already have a plan in my mind. If my life does not get any better by January 1, 2020; then I will take my own life. I have been dealing with this FUCKING SHIT EVER SINCE I was 11 years old. 2018 will be the 10th consecutive SHITTY […]