i absolutley hate my meds and i hate my parents for making me take them. it sucks and i cant stand it. ugh stupid meds. i wish i didnt have to take them then i wouldnt be so blah., too late!!!
pshychotic_lette
yesterday i figured out another way inflict pain on myself. i forgot how strong i am when i’m really pissed. so i smacked my arm a couple times and my forearm was red. my younger brother completely pissed me off yesterday. i dont understand why he has to be such a brat. and my sister thinks everything is a frickin game. why is it that every little thing pisses me off. i really need therapy. Burning doesnt help much, but hitting my hands and arms against stuff helps a bit i feel much better. i actually almost broke my wrist by hitting it as hard […]
Today i finally cried…………………..
Today i sat in a stall in the girls bathroom and cried, but i also raked my finger nails across my left wrist. It felt good but i dont think it helped but yes i did feel better for once i didnt draw blood which was a good thing for me. it felt good t finally cry, and even better when no one asked questions, becasue usually someone with tear stained cheeks draws some attention. i feel better though…….
and my best friend forgave me and i am truly glad!!!
I thought I have heard it all and seen it all. I hate my life sometimes, and I hate my family. But sometimes it is hard to say this.
Many times when I’m ready to give up, I tell my friends that I won’t even though they know it as well as I do that it’s a bold faced lie. When things get bad I always want to give up. But my friends try to encourage me to keep going. But even when the going gets tough, I’m always ready to throw in the towel. How can I keep this up before I completely lose […]
what else can i say? its the same nightmare over and over again. all the rage the fighting. the screaming……
recently my boyfriend of 6 months dumped me because i wasn’t talking to him all that much.i tried to explain to hiim why. but he wouldn’t listen, but we talked last night and i told that i was sorry…. being that i’m not very social in the first place. why won’t he listen? i have no idea. i honestly have gone a bit nuts because of this. I don’t know what to do. i miss him so much, we still talk but i still have this […]
No escape
Nothing to be done or can be done to reverse the damage……
I dont like holding things back but i have to because of how my parents act. I dont have many friends atlest not any that understand how i feel. I was a great kid growing up but when i hit eighth grade, i finally said i was fed up with being the goody too shoo my paretns thought of me as. I hit high school and started dating a senior. Slowly i started conversing with the bad ass kids. they became everything to me, and after nine years of nothing but being pushed […]