I ain’t looking for pity, I fucking know I don’t deserve it. Life is fucking good for me right now. I got a roof over my head, I got food to eat, I got friends and family, I’m doing well in classes, and I just got a great fucking job at one of my favorite places in the area, so why the fuck do I feel like this……
God, I forgot how good a knife edge feels….
I spent some time today scouting various locations to make my exit, and I’ve narrowed it down to about 2-4 places. I don’t know when I’ll take that last step, but at least I have a good idea of where I will…
And here, I thought I had gotten better.
Let me start by saying that I know I’m a skinny person, and I know I don’t need to lose any weight, even if I would like to lose a few pounds. I’ve also been standing right on the edge (metaphorically speaking) of developing anorexic habits for some time now, though I’ve not had a great deal of choice in how much I do without, due to the physical requirements of my job and the need to keep my energy levels up. I feel fairly confident saying that, because I know several people who struggle with anorexia, and I can see how it affects their behaviour.
Anyways, I felt […]
Let me just give up, Let me just let go,
If this isn’t good for me, well I don’t wanna know.
Let me just stop trying, let me just stop fighting,
I don’t want your good advice or reasons why I’m alright…
This may be goodbye
I may remain for some time
I leave on my terms
I write this letter with one goal in mind, and that is to say goodbye. I no longer wish to remain in this hell commonly known as life, and that is why I will be leaving you. I do not yet know when I will make my escape, but do not doubt that I will.
I understand how fortunate I am to have grown up under the circumstances that I did, and I fully realize how little right I have to feel so pitiful. Unfortunately, this does not change the fact that I am no longer able to bear the burdens that I’ve struggled to, for […]