the plan

i sit here in the drak.. only light coming from this screen. and im thinkin of wat life has to offer me… and i see nothing.. i screw up anything and everything. and i know im gonna screw up this.. the best thing that ever happend to me.. is her and i know im just gonna mess it up so wats the point in trying anymore cause i just fucked it up i think already :/ soo i think tomorrow on my way to work my jeep might just slide off the road into that big maple tree at 90 and get smashed to bits with me in it with no seat belt on.. i love you kaylee foster.. and if i do this then just know im srr for… well for being jealous and being depressed all the time :/ but ya u r the love of my life and i just dont wanna hurt u (and no i would never hit you) i just dont wanna hurt u mentaly..