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I feel my feet leave the ground
As the lies make me weightless
This false freedom all around
Sweeps true reality down

And I struggle to see the truth
Because I’ve been here before
Countless times I’ve risen
To these cloudy illusions
Only to fall farther
When the delusion disintegrates

I try with everything
To resist the beautiful sins
Beckoning to me with forked tongues
And to warped perfections I involuntarily cling

But I float nonetheless
On the wings of doomed bliss
Knowing its damnation
Hating myself for this weakness

And I struggle to see the truth
Because I’ve been here before
Countless times I’ve risen
To these cloudy […]

Sinking into this ravaging ocean
Completely enveloped by her tormenting sea
Unable to move in the stillness of blazing agony
She consigns herself to this infinite cycle of degradation
Knowing it to be more than she deserves

Barely coherent through the glass of cruel knowledge
She perpetually attempts a doomed reconciliation
To the life long lost in the mythical truth
Fate sealed in this loop of unending destruction
She wishes for a merciful release

Losing her consciousness
Dissolving in the mind
Escaping knowledge
Through the heavenly gates of insanity

Phantoms of her forgotten memories
Prance in a choreographed massacre of inspiration
As she transforms the water to a […]

Diseases and plagues are easy to withstand
Hurricanes and earthquakes that reduce your world to sand
Are inconsequential compared to the torture,
The interminable agony you endure

Resistance or reversal ever futile
Against an all-consuming affliction of the devil
Warping every happiness to a misery
Past becoming future: time unravels slowly

But insanity is a loathed escape
From the hell you yourself create

Your thoughts breed a deserved hatred
A roiling pain that incubates inside
Of every word, every action you’ve ever committed
Knowing yourself a failure at everything you ever tried
It’s a pain, a hate you cannot escape
No matter how fast, how far you run […]