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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

I told my girlfriend about my suicidal thoughts today.

by tippitytoes 11/18/2013

written by tippitytoes

I’m a panromantic homosexual, and my girlfriend knows I’ve suffered with self harm. She knows I still do and that it’s hard breaking the habit, and she’s there when I need to talk. Tonight I told her if I had never met her I would have left and that I probably still wouldn’t be alive today. We have a long distance relationship, and I can’t see her all the time, so I feel alone. Tonight though, we were on videochat and I told her about all of it. Her first words were ‘Oh my God’, and then she started crying. She talked to me, and […]

11/18/2013 3 comments

I want a friend

by Alyssabeth213 11/18/2013

written by Alyssabeth213

I just want someone who can trust and beaccepted by. I feel like no one cares about me and if I were to die tonight nobody would notice. I hate myself for being so lonely.

11/18/2013 8 comments

Honestly: my fucked up life

by virtus 11/18/2013

written by virtus

So I decided to be completely honest right now about my life.

one of my friends is constantly attempting to commit suicide.

my entire group of friends is into cutting and marijuana.

my parents think I’m the good one.

my teachers think Im the smart kid.

my siblings want to be like me.

but I hate myself.

I want to die.

i can’t even tell my friends who cut that I do too because they depend on me to be the stable one in our group.

the one who isn’t fucked up.

i don’t know how much longer I can take it.

i just want to drive and drive and never look back.

honestly?

i feel like shit

11/18/2013 5 comments

Disappearing is such a comforting thought

by Ranshin 11/17/2013

written by Ranshin

Now dont get me wrong, I dont wish to kill myself, atleast maybe not yet. Y’know I dont have the same pains as everybody else here, I simply have a lack of motivation and feelings. Maybe that’s led me down to this swirling depressing road. God, I feel nothing most of the time, even now I feel nothing while writing this, it just feels like I’m an empty lonely vessel. I know my family loves me, I know my friends love me, but I cant help but feel empty, I’ve always hurt others without realizing it, and once I do? I feel nothing. I feel […]

11/17/2013 1 comment

Hey There :)

by Blake SinBad 11/17/2013

written by Blake SinBad

Hey there 🙂

My name is Sara Johnson.

I just came to say, as a regular of this site, I’m in a really good mood, despite the shit I’m going through right now. I do have issues, but that’s not important. I want to talk about you. I know I don’t know you. Hell, you don’t even know me. But I think you’re beautiful. Not on the outside. Fuck that shit. Do whatever YOU think makes YOU beautiful on the outside. But I think you’re beautiful […]

11/17/2013 6 comments

One shot

by Jmichael 11/16/2013

written by Jmichael

One shot, that is all I needed when I bought this gun. This time it was real. I didnâ€™t think about taking it too far. This was for me, to end my pain and misery. It was 1996, the year that I hit rock bottom and there was no drugs or alcohol involved. It was severe depression. It was that year as itâ€™s said â€œthe love of my lifeâ€ and I broke up. But the worst was yet to come. My Grandfather was dying. A man who showed me things in life that never would have been possible for me to learn since my father […]

11/16/2013 4 comments

curiosity

by tia 11/16/2013

written by tia

the clutching curiosity of death is grasping me relentlessly. i wonder the thoughts that would race through my mind as i plummeted towards the pavement, i wonder what people would think when they discovered what happened to me, i wonder what people would think when the found out my true story and how shitty i felt while i was laughing at their jokes.

iÂ will end my life,Â i will end it,Â iÂ will, no one else, nothing else. this is me taking control of my life.

11/16/2013 3 comments

Therapists know the best, at least that’s what they think…

by Engeltje 11/15/2013

written by Engeltje

Therapists know what’s the best for you and what you need, at least that’s what the therapists think. But I can tell you, they don’t know what’s the best. I have a therapy now, and it drives me crazy, and it also makes me feel even more depressed. I want to stop that therapy, said that to my therapist and explained to her why. Only she thinks it’s better to move on with the therapy, because she thinks it can help me. But it’s a therapy with the whole family, how to communicate, and say thinks to each other and stuff. It’s just not going […]

11/15/2013 0 comment

I don’t know who I am anymore

by S. 11/14/2013

written by S.

I can’t live with everyone’s expectations of me. I’ve spent some months taking care of a relative who’d suffered in a road accident. Now the situation is getting better so everyone expects me to return to my PhD and start a great career in science.

To be honest, the only thing I want is to be alone somewhere, stay indoors all the time and sleep.

I can’t read a single book on my research, it makes me sleepy. I can’t babysit my relative + cook and clean for everyone. I lose my patience all the time.

I know many people are in a far worse situation than me. […]

11/14/2013 6 comments

Somethings I must consider

by IquitIquitIquit 11/13/2013

written by IquitIquitIquit

Why did I come here? I have no intention of dying. I wear the mask of happiness day in and day out. No one knows my secret pain, and I shall keep it that way. I came here for release. A place to put down words that express the emotions I must compress, day in and day out, while I wear the mask for the sake of others who cannot bare the face behind my mask.

I do not want their pity. There is nothing they could say or do to make it better, for nothing at all is wrong. My life is perfect. I just…hurt. […]

11/13/2013 1 comment

A new breakup, a new love but old habits

by taylah 11/13/2013

written by taylah

I havent posted for a while and i thought i should start again. so I broke up with my boyfriend and I started self harming again. I stopped eating and cried a lot. One of my mates who I loved asked me out 3 weeks later. That was about a week ago. But I feel like I still have feelings for my ex which is hard because I really badly love my new bf. The stress and emotions are starting to take over me physically and mentally. During this week alone I have punched 2 students, threatened a teacher, punched the walls of the […]

11/13/2013 0 comment

People just forget about me

by slowlyforgetting 11/12/2013

written by slowlyforgetting

You all think that I’m the one
Who should be helping you.
You all think I’ve got life figured out,
That I would never be taboo

You all think that I am perfect,
Reaching for the stars.
But really I’ve got issues
And they are leaving scars…

You all think that I am independent,
That I don’t need a helping hand
But my world sinks beneath me
As if it is made out of sand.

You’ve seen something sad
When you look into my eyes
But you can’t figure what it is,
You can’t identify.

You figure that it’s nothing,
A gleam from a light.
But you’re wrong, it’s […]

11/12/2013 3 comments

My suicide

by demo 11/12/2013

written by demo

I never thought I would consider suicide as an option. If I’m online trying to find reasons not to kill myself, it gives me hope that maybe I don’t really want to die. That sounds weak. I’ve been accused of being weak, and it was spewed at me in a not nice way. I finished reading the last book of a trilogy that was going to become my favorite books of all time. At the end, the lead character dies. It didn’t make sense to me. It still doesn’t. I’m still trying to get it through my head, to process what happened at the end […]

11/12/2013 5 comments

Swear on it

by sleeplessinSTL 11/11/2013

written by sleeplessinSTL

I wish that when people made promises, that they’d keep them. I didn’t know it was truly that hard. I’m not niave, but I still trust people I really shouldn’t. You know that one person in your life who, no matter how mayny times they break a promise, you’ll still believe them?

Maybe you don’t, but I have a few.

Just keep your goddamned promises.

11/11/2013 1 comment

I need to get this out there, I’m so upset.

by Needing Hope 11/11/2013

written by Needing Hope

So the other day, my family and I went out to dinner. My dad is very critical of depression, and somehow it came up. He started going on about suicide. He said that suicide is immature and stupid, and basically that anyone who attempts or does commit suicide, is pathetic basically. And I’ve been struggling with depression, so I feel like if I commit suicide, he’ll just be critical. He doesn’t care. And half my friends hate me because “I’m so freaking stupid and I need to get over everything or kill myself.”

11/11/2013 7 comments

An Introduction

by MusicMystique 11/11/2013

written by MusicMystique

So my story. I guess I’ll be blunt about it.

My father committed suicide. I was a baby, the age of two. I have no memory of him. It haunts me daily.

It was the day after his birthday, a day that no one would expect anything to be wrong, and although I’m not completely clear on the story (no one will talk to me about it no matter how much I beg, i actually didn’t know he killed himself until sixth grade.) but from what I’ve gathered, he had had enough, he climbed to the top of our barn, tied a noose around his neck and […]

11/11/2013 5 comments

im really tired of the world’s shit

by tia 11/10/2013

written by tia

my head is pounding, my vision is blurring, and my thoughts are skewed, i am on hour 20 of my fast, boycotting water and food. i read that old people restrict themselves of food and water, as a way of suicide, and the process often lasts around 5-10 days, so i guess that is how long i have left. i am grateful for this kind of suicide because my family and friends might not be aware that my death was volentary, hopefully the will see it as a crude accident, and feel no responsibility. fingers crossed.

11/10/2013 2 comments

How to Die without pain and reborn again! [Tutorial]

by The Rising Guy :) 11/8/2013

written by The Rising Guy :)

Note: This is my personal experience and I tried to explain everything I could, I could explain better but I’m not a writer,I’ll write whatever comes in my mind and sorry for the English grammar mistakes 🙂 So, let me show you how to die without pain, it works 100% and I know it is going to be a long article (may be) but it worth reading. 🙂 I’m not here to waste your time or make you feel bad, I want to show you, […]

11/8/2013 49 comments

Goodbye Dreams

by nerevars 11/7/2013

written by nerevars

I’m not afraid of being laughed at. I just think that, even if I do my best now, I still may not be able to reach my goal. No… I know the chance of success is way too low. Knowing that, why would I even try?! Why don’t I just living my life like this ’till the end?

11/7/2013 2 comments

I’m looking for a GirlFriend! I’m 23 years old boy, so lonely! We can be together forever!

by The Rising Guy :) 11/7/2013

written by The Rising Guy :)

Hello, there. I know life has become so bad, but we can be together forever. No one cared about you but I’ll care for you. You’ve gone into a deep depression and I can help you to get out of your depression and I can make your life happy 🙂

I need a girl’s friendship. I’m just a normal boy looking for someone special in my life! I don’t know if I can find someone to talk to. Even if My life was perfect it was like mess for me, I was depressed too but I learned to getup and change my life. My life is […]

11/7/2013 12 comments

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