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Family & Friends Effects

The effects of suicide on family and friends.

by TheImmortalYoshi 3/31/2014

written by TheImmortalYoshi

Hey everyone..I haven’t posted in a while..So yeah..I found out along with my severe depression and anxiety..I’m bipolar and they can’t even diagnose what stage because of how fast my mood changes. Plus I am on the boarder line of having a personality disorder like split personalities. So I am on mood stabilizers and anxiety meds..I guess they kinda help, they just make me really sleepy is all I know..I also found out that I’m pretty much disabled from having all my problems with my mind and my nerves and all this other stuff so that is just great, I found that out today..I also […]

3/31/2014 0 comment

This isn’t really all sunshine and flowers.

by Saikarie 3/31/2014

written by Saikarie

I’m not sure where to exactly start on this, I could go through my life story and all that to be honest it isn’t nearly as bad as what others have experienced, but i’ll see where it goes.

I was born under odd circumstances, the cord was strangling me so my mother had to have an operation to get me out. After what i believe to be a year they discovered that I was kind of deaf, so they inserted gromits into my ears to get rid of the wax and i could hear fine afterwards, but because of this i had learning difficulties. I was […]

3/31/2014 1 comment

Does it matter

by Day 3/31/2014

written by Day

My mother is a complete psycho ***** that hates me to the extent of why I wonder I haven’t blown my brains out a lot if times I wonder if I’m even her son or something else to her like property and my dad is a wanna be thug who TRIES to relate to me when he was NEVER there for me and suddenly thinks that he can come back and think I will have no hard feelings towards him my grandparents think I mess everything up maybe it’s true I pretty much have nobody all of my friends I’ve made are on Xbox and […]

3/31/2014 2 comments

by recovering_girl 3/31/2014

written by recovering_girl

I am 19 years old and I have an eating disorder.

Two weeks ago I was admitted to hospital for an overdose and for self-harm. My normal weight before the eating disorder was 73kgs but now I range between 59-62kg (which is on the brink of unhealthy for my height).

Between the ages of 8-12 I was continuously sexually abused and when I was 12 I was taken from my house by child protective services because of a FALSE allegation against one of the male family members in my family.

Since that night I was forced to live away from home. Luckily I was allowed to lie with […]

3/31/2014 1 comment

by hellblau 3/31/2014

written by hellblau

I CAN’T SLEEP

3/31/2014 7 comments

by hellblau 3/31/2014

written by hellblau

I want to believe in someone,Â I want to believe in something,Â I want to believe that I can love again. And one you will love again, one day, you will.

But I can’t.

3/31/2014 1 comment

School butterflies

by Lotofshiz 3/30/2014

written by Lotofshiz

I don’t know why but everyday I go to school I get butterflies in my stomach.Its really starting to annoy me , does anyone know show to stop them.

3/30/2014 4 comments

Anyone have a poem?

by Came2Die 3/30/2014

written by Came2Die

I want you to tell me a poem you wrote. I feel the poetry that people have made on this site is beautiful so let me hear your’s that you have made?

3/30/2014 7 comments

Where’d Everybody Go?

by Blake SinBad 3/29/2014

written by Blake SinBad

Wow. I almost forgot what it was like to be alone. I forgot how gut-wrenchingly horrifying it is. How it eats you from the inside out. boyfriend hast talked to me in over two weeks. We see each other all the time, and I try to talk to him, but it’s like we don’t know how anymore. I’m not going to be able to keep this up. All of my friends have been getting mad at me because I fuck things up all the time. My best friend though, is still there. She’d never leave…right? My only other actual friend is a guy in my […]

3/29/2014 1 comment

Make it or Break it

by marz 3/27/2014

written by marz

From such a young age I have experienced so much pain. Age of 8 the most dear person in the world passed away, my granddad, the only person in the world who loved me more than my parents. Age 10 turned to smoking as a pain reliever and have been addicted ever since. Age 11 got moved half way around the world to a place I had no knowledge of, came back to UK a year later for holiday only to find out my dad has another wife and a child with her who was 4 years of age at the time, having committed bigamy. […]

3/27/2014 4 comments

You.

by marz 3/27/2014

written by marz

You beat me down,
You struck me low,
Don’t know how far you think I can go.
You don’t know what it’s like to be me,
Look through my eyes and you will see,
How hurt I am,
You don’t give a fucking damn,
I’d rather die than listen to another lie.

All I ever wanted was your love,
Doesn’t seem that you have enough.
Can’t you see it’s killing me inside,
I’m sure you’ll be sorry once I’ve died.

3/27/2014 0 comment

This life.

by KatrinaChua 3/24/2014

written by KatrinaChua

Life is so unfair. Life is always giving me hard time even though i can handle it, but i’ m getting weaker, slowly i’m givingup. Each morning, I always tell to myself, why i am still alive. Is God still loves me?.. Why I’m still waking up every morning and still breathing?.. What will I do? I cant kill myself because i dont want to hurt my love ones especially that i have my first boyfriend. i dont want him to be like lea michele because of cory monteith. i want to be happy. i want to feel that i am loved by the people […]

3/24/2014 1 comment

everything is the same

by mudpuddle 3/24/2014

written by mudpuddle

Looking around at friend’s and family I see a cycle, one I don’t want it makes me depressed. Everyone grows up and lives in cookie cutter homes has kids and slaps on a smile. I don’t want that, I don’t want to get sucked into society’s vortex. I want to be a nurse and work all the time. I feel like since i’m girl my family has the same expectations, grow up, get married, kids. I just want my cat and me, and to help people. I don’t want anyone’s expectations. I feel like i’m a burden to my boyfriend, a disappointment to my family. […]

3/24/2014 1 comment

The ultimate sin of being born

by EndSearch 3/24/2014

written by EndSearch

So, past few weeks have been hell. I have been having extreme bursts of anger/violence. It isn’t me, it isn’t me at all. I’m a good girl and now… in less than two weeks time I was taken to ER in handcuffs in back of cop car (released same night) I had to talk to a therapist in a cheap hospital gown naked. I’d rather they strapped me in the chair as long as I would’ve got to keep my clothes on.

Anyways, cut to this morning … my dad was in my room and called me names and screaming and what have you… he barricaded […]

3/24/2014 0 comment

by hellblau 3/23/2014

written by hellblau

And in the darkest night
If my memory serves me right
I’ll never turn back time
Forgetting you, but not the time.

3/23/2014 1 comment

Always alone

by Day 3/23/2014

written by Day

I’ve been that one guy who sits alone in the back of the class the guy who sits alone st lunch and why? Well the answer is obvious everyone hates me. Everytime I try to talk to someone I get this strong feeling they don’t want to be around me then again who would I’m a complete waste of space I’m only on this damn blog so my friend the only person who cares will know that I’m alright honestly I’m sick of being everyone’s punching bag it dosent matter where I’m at some asshole will open his mouth then everyone’s saying something about me […]

3/23/2014 8 comments

Late night thoughts

by anonymous. 3/23/2014

written by anonymous.

I was told once, before we’re born we choose to come into this life. Told the possibilities of life are endless, you can do anything you put your mind to. Why is it that life contradicts that very statement. From a young age were forced to see the realities of what this life really is. A place where judgement of others is more important than judgement of one’s self. Where the rich strive and prosper and the poor struggle. Where the only peace you can find is in the bottom of a bottle. Or with a complete stranger, it seems the closest to you have […]

3/23/2014 7 comments

What’s next

by neddyboi 3/23/2014

written by neddyboi

After being beaten and abusea by my step farther I run away from home. i spent 2 years sleeping rough before they found me. Refusing to go home he beat me again, this time rupturing my spleen. I was in hospital over 2 months. No one came to visit No contact from any one. Sum years later I am still bitter and angry. I have a gross scar that take up most my chest and can’t take my shirt off without people looking and asking questions. I don’t sleep well and often wake up screaming. I struggle to make friends, trust people an have been […]

3/23/2014 1 comment

I live for other people.

by Commodus 3/22/2014

written by Commodus

That’s all I fucking do. Why am I here? Because I have to take care of my Mother, because I don’t want to upset my brother. And what happens when I tell my brother how I feel? He uses my niece as an emotional bargaining chip. ‘Oh,’ he says, ‘don’t you want to stay alive to see her grow up?’

He doesn’t get it. How could he? It’s his fault I feel this way. The beatings, the emotional abuse, the sense of powerlessness and just being trapped. I’m 26 and I don’t feel alive, I never had a childhood or a real life, I’m just the […]

3/22/2014 11 comments

dreams….alive or dead…..

by KIARA 3/21/2014

written by KIARA

Dreams, a reason why we all work hard to conquer then,to live them.there is always a stage in our life when we let go of our dreams and our aspiration and that point of time we all lie to our ownself that maybe it was not in our destiny or maybe someting better is planned for us. Thats where we lose control over our fate…after this phase is over we all pamper our self make up stuff to satiate our pinching mind which makes us realise that we had done wrong…after all this will be over we again dream but this time its in our […]

3/21/2014 2 comments

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