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I haven’t been able to think straight for days now. Dreams seem like they are real and the real world seems fake. I’m really tired. I try to be nice to others and somehow it pushes them away. A 5 year old girl on the metro said I look really good today though 🙂

But it seems like a lot of adult women are repulsed by me, somehow. Even though I have more friends than I’ve ever had, and pretty good friends I think, I feel strange. Something about me just doesn’t feel right. The only girls that ever interest me in real life […]

I FUCKING HATE EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE!

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life seems more unappealing as the days go on realizing more and more everyday how much of a burden you are to everyone you love and you only cause inconvenience or pain and make everyone not want to talk to you because you’re nothing but a pile of rot. and then you realize it would be beneficial if you died because your best friend would surely be happier with a different friend and your partner could be happier without your existence and your family doesnt have to live with a disappointment everyday because they know you’re just a worthless loser. so then you sit in […]

So I went to the doctor on Tuesday, the head doctor, only doctor I go to. I got a PA, which is always an adventure. This one was decent, I’m not complaining. Rather, new provider, I’ve got to give her the gist of what’s going on with me. What’s going on with me? Sleep problems, eating problems, a couple severely suicidal moments in the past two weeks. Not particularly suicidal right now, because I’d have to care to be that.

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There is nothing but bad shit on the horizon and beyond. What is 100% ahead of us?

-old age
-sagging skin
-wrinkles
-more health problems
-aching everything
-every body part starts to fall apart
-less able to DO things

I am middle age so not “old” yet but I just don’t see any fucking “silver lining.”
I already have health problems, and the older you get, the worse it gets. So it’s nothing but misery ahead for me.

You’d think that hunger would force us to go out and get food. But nope. Depression > Hunger. I haven’t been eating regular/much the last few months and yet I’ve GAINED weight. WTF. -_-

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I can’t believe there are people out there my age that don’t feel the way I do . That aren’t lonely and isolated. That don’t think about killing themselves almost everyday. That have friends and are happy.

I went to the store today and saw a group of teenage boys. They were laughing, smiling, chasing each other around the store. It made me so jealous I wanted to cry. Seeing people my age enjoy being a teenager makes me feel so shitty.

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Why does this world have to suck so much?

Through the years, I’ve been dreaming about returning to the house I grew up in. It’s up for sale again. Painful, you know. I just close my eyes and the memories flood in. I want it back so badly.

I wish I could undo most of my life. Hell, I’d go all the way back to say HS. I’d apply to a different college. My whole trajectory would have been different then. WAY different.

My life has been in shambles, in ruins, the last 15 years. Well, 18 years is when it went downhill. But definitely shitty AF the last 15. And it’s gotten progressively worse. The last few years has been hell. It’s come to a point where this trajectory is leading me to a quick trip to hell soon.

I want to know WHEN my life will get better, if ever?
It’s been so long that I’ve lost my will the past 15 years.
Not much fight/hope/will/determination/desire left in me…

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