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Robbed, betrayed, humiliated and left with few options…

by cagedtiger 7/30/2014

written by cagedtiger

I can’t begin to describe the hell that I’ve been put through for the last 8 months. I won’t even try. All I can say is that I have been scammed, robbed, taken for all I have/had and left to suffer the financial consequences, the shame and the betrayal. I can’t believe that someone that I helped through the worst times of their life could do this to me. Bottom line, they robbed me for close to 30k.

All I can think about is that if there was ever a time to end my life, now is it. This is rock bottom. This person has made […]

7/30/2014 16 comments

Witness of my boyfriend’s suicide attempt

by Halfmoon 7/30/2014

written by Halfmoon

He loves me and can’t live without me–he says. But he won’t listen when I tell him what I need to be happy and to regain trust in him after robbing me while high on crack. I was a codependent until I learned to implement a tough love routine.

He promised he would go to rehab so i sprung him out of jail. And then, he skipped off 3 hrs away blowing off rehab. He insists i cheat on him when he’s the only one. He’s psychotic and the list of guys he accused that I am having sex with just keeps growing. We argue and […]

7/30/2014 11 comments

Confused?

by Still Lost 7/30/2014

written by Still Lost

I am incredibly suicidal and am ready to end my life with an impulsive moment…. but I find myself commenting on other people’s posts about not giving up and to keep fighting. Am I a hypocrite? Perhaps I am so conditioned to think that my life is not worth anything but other’s lives are worth the effort.

7/30/2014 9 comments

My life.

by BelgianWaffle 7/30/2014

written by BelgianWaffle

I was born to parents with a failing marriage. My father is an alcoholic and cocaine addict, now in recovery. My father cheated on my mom which eventually led to divorce. I still don’t know the real reason behind what happened. My father was barely honorably discharged from the military. Since I started school I would take in everything and not do any work and not turn anything in. Before you ask, no I do not have ADHD or any clinical diagnosis besides chronic depression. I am an avid musician, I’ve traveled Europe with a music group..I still want to end this life though. I’ve […]

7/30/2014 2 comments

Considering Ending It All

by SilverGoddess914 7/30/2014

written by SilverGoddess914

So I am just done. Done with life, done with daily strife, just done. This morning I went out to my car, ready to start a fresh new day at work. I get there and start my car. Smoke starts pouring out of the front and back of the car and it won’t move. I end up having to call a tow truck to come get my car and calling out of work since I had no car to get into work with. And I had no PTO. So now I am worried about losing my job. I take my car […]

7/30/2014 5 comments

The search for a point

by RaM1698 7/30/2014

written by RaM1698

Who am I?

I am close to 30, I am employed, I am appreciated at work, I love my mother, I have a somewhat understandable relationship with my father, I have 8 brothers and sisters, I have some friends, I had girlfriends in the past, I have a future.

From the age of 15 I felt weary of life, having a photographic memory and an IQ of 155, I know I can be whoever I want and do whatever I want. I excel in everything I put my mind to, but at the end of the day the only thing I wish for is to put a […]

7/30/2014 12 comments

Am I feeling better?

by drops 7/30/2014

written by drops

I think that I am feeling better. Or am I? I am so used to telling psychologists about my life, but I haven’t really listened to my own words. Could this actually be my reality? Seems like a weird and sad movie, really. I’m going to try to keep this short. EDIT: Turned out to be longer than expected…

I’ve had OCD for like forever, which probably is harder than I realize. I lost my best friend when I was 8 years old when a tsunami hit Thailand, my father has been drinking way too much for as long as I can remember, my mother has […]

7/30/2014 6 comments

no other option

by 04825413 7/30/2014

written by 04825413

I feel cornered.
The past six years of my life, I’ve been telling myself it will get better. My friends, my family, the various therapists I’ve been to, they all say the same thing: it will get better.
But now that I’m here, I realize it’s not going to get better. I’m going to be crippled by this black hole in my mind for the rest of my life. There’s no cure. I’m not interested in leading a life marked by this strange, hellish pain. I’m too tired to put up with it anymore. As much as I want to love my life, there’s simply […]

7/30/2014 5 comments

Hope and Despair co-exist for me

by Lonely 7/30/2014

written by Lonely

I have been looking for a place to share my frustration with people who can understand me and help me come out of my depression.

Here goes my story-

I was in college when I met a guy and fell in love with him so deeply that I had to marry him at any cost. I always believed he loved me as much as I did. I had an amazing college life with my life revolving only around him. Seldom did he papmper me, he never said a “I love You” to me on face but still i always believed he loved me the most in this world. […]

7/30/2014 2 comments

A smile that meant nothing

by Redneck22 7/30/2014

written by Redneck22

I would smile to friends and family for the longest time. I would smile like nothing was wrong to keep people away from asking whats wrong. I kept that smile up for the people who thought my life was perfect. Nobody knew the pain N suffering I had to go through to get to where I am now. I’ve walked a thin line from never getting caught to hey what happens if I get caught. During that time I was N still am suffering from PTSD, anxiety, panic attacks, and mood disorder. I watched a family member do things to me that I should […]

7/30/2014 2 comments

Where I come from

by Thatothersmightlive 7/30/2014

written by Thatothersmightlive

Finally a site where I can be honest and tell the truth. So where did I come from? From about age 13 or so under the influence of some great adult leaders I got into helping people especially in the area of health care.

Whether it was in my early age with the first aid and CPR card, until the 30 years that I’ve been licensed as a paramedic and respiratory therapist I did my best for everyone. I don’t know if it was the adrenaline rush or just the pure joy of seeing someone get better or comforted at their time of death I was […]

7/30/2014 2 comments

Hand me down the noose.

by Jihesshou xx 7/30/2014

written by Jihesshou xx

I’ll be moving in two weeks. I’ll be moving miles away from the place I only knew as home, my friends, my boyfriend, my family. We have to move though, and I know I can’t do anything to stop that. All of the “friends” I told didn’t care, they responded with texts like “Oh.” “That sucks,”. I don’t need someone crying for me, but it’d be nice to know someone cared. We’re moving to my moms’ boyfriends house. He’s a real asshole and I have a hard time making friends. This new state and school will take alot out of me, and i’m afraid. I […]

7/30/2014 3 comments

entry from my Diary..

by CrimsonDream 7/30/2014

written by CrimsonDream

Being Alone In Bliss

You know the first thing i thought of when i held the household cleaner. Drink It. End it now. Finish it off. The first thing i thought of when i opened the cabinet above the sink, grab a razor; end it. I want to die so bad all i do is fuck things up. All i do is cause trouble and pain. Idk if anyone knows how i’m feeling right now. I want to leave my body. I want no use of my soul. I want to be dead. I’m in my closet crying alone. No one knows […]

7/30/2014 0 comment

saved

by LydiaCoon 7/30/2014

written by LydiaCoon

Last year I would cut my self every chance I got. My friends, Hunter and Laura, were the first to notice. The keeper telling me to stop but I continued. Then my teacher, Ms.Ring sent me up to my school’s conciler. She told me all the reasons why I should live. I have a brother, a sister, and so many friends. When ask me why I wanted to die. I told her about how I get called so many names, and how everyone says I get my clothing at Walmart and the doller store. Then when I go home I get called more names like […]

7/30/2014 2 comments

Oh life.

by rainbow123 7/30/2014

written by rainbow123

Being 17 is such a crap age, so full of anger and hate towards everyone. People always ask me why i’m so angry, i can never explain why because i don’t know where all my anger came from. I blame my parents!

I’m have no idea what i want to say here, all i know is that i wanna write stuff down because i’m sick of making the most important person in my life feel like he has to help me deal with my past and problems, it’s not fair on him!

Anyway, I think i’m just going to list a bunch of things from my past […]

7/30/2014 3 comments

I HATE YOU GOD

by tctc 7/30/2014

written by tctc

I HATE YOU GOD
I HATE YOU GOD
I HATE YOU GOD
I HATE YOU GOD
I HATE YOU GOD

I HATE YOU.

7/30/2014 3 comments

NAKED AND EXPOSED.

by tctc 7/30/2014

written by tctc

My mask is off! The image I’ve so painfully crafted has been destroyed! Now everyone knows the truth. I feel exposed and naked; it’s as if everyone can see through me AND I AM SO SCARED I AM SO SCARED SO AFRAID I DON’T EVEN KNOW WHAT I AM SO ASHAMED OF

7/30/2014 4 comments

my suicide letter

by endlesstearss 7/30/2014

written by endlesstearss

Im just done. I cannot take this anymore. I can no longer handle being shoved around or not having anyone there for me. Its just to overwhelming, to stressful, to depressing. I feel so alone. Nothing matters. Numbness is my bestfriend. Im just not enough to hold up all this weight. No one would see this coming. I never showed a sign of hurt when they called me those names. Saying i looked aneroxic and that no one likes me. Really they just pushed it and hid it furthet and further deep down inside of me. But one human being can only take so much. […]

7/30/2014 6 comments

something ill never understand.

by Procel 7/30/2014

written by Procel

Why do people insist on celebrating the day you were pulled, kicking and screaming out of your mother, so much so that they do it every year. Why do we have to celebrate another year alive. Another year of underachieving and mistakes. Instead of moving forward with life i go backwards since last year. And this year its worse. Another year… Fuck it. Promised i wouldn’t ever see this birthday. Another promise gone…

7/30/2014 1 comment

Why do people fear death?

by bornfordying123 7/30/2014

written by bornfordying123

It’s because all the evidence points to there being nothing after death, just an endless state of nothingness, not even unconsciousness, just nihil. Not even blackness, not even a thought, an absence of anything, thought, processes, colour or anything, no heaven, no hell, just an eternity of nothingness, not even darkness, just. nil. And most rational human beings know that no matter how loudly they pray or claim they believe in the magnificent sky fairy it doesn’t change the evidence one bit. Or alter the reality, that there is nothing beyond. And people find that hard to deal with. Myself included.

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7/30/2014 2 comments

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