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????Am I better of Dead…????? -The Script

by Bleedinglove 8/3/2014

written by Bleedinglove

My demons creep back into my room and rip me to shreds…. Leave me with tears, scars, and blood dripping from my legs…. Who cares though right? I mean that’s how I live life everyday… With the people around me.. Who say they’ll stay?

I mean they said it’d be okay.. But honestly this “okay” feeling has yet to come.. So here I am once again putting on the same mask to hide my true expression.

Though I may smile it doesn’t mean I feel how I look… Looks can be deceiving.. And one might say that I’m a master of deception. I scream for […]

8/3/2014 4 comments

I Don’t Want to Exist Anymore

by MoreThanMyThoughts 8/3/2014

written by MoreThanMyThoughts

8/3/2014 6 comments

A story

by lostchild445 8/3/2014

written by lostchild445

I wrote this for a project in english class. Its a story about my own life. I threw myself into 3rd person and became the friend I wish I had when this was all happening. I hope you enjoy.

id the same. I dont think I heard them ever tell him congratulations without there being a “but” after it. Maybe they did, but I’m pretty sure he would’ve told me about it. So, Alex goes through his life thinking he is never good enough, that failure far outweighs success and quite frankly, he was miserable. But, for some reason, I can never remember him crying.

In middle […]

8/3/2014 0 comment

What makes you think you know everything?

by tctc 8/3/2014

written by tctc

What makes you think you know what’s best for you?
What makes you think you know what’s right and what’s wrong?
What makes you think you know the difference between good and bad?
What makes you think you know what you’re doing?

What makes you think you know everything?

8/3/2014 2 comments

…

by insecure angel 8/3/2014

written by insecure angel

Hello!! I’m bored and little sad. My girlfriend is in Costa Rica on vacation and cannot text. 🙁 anyway anybody wanna chat?? I LOVE helping people so text me! Even if you’re bored too and you want to talk. Anything is fine!! I’m a 16 year old male, my name is Matt. 🙂 my number 19494846924

8/3/2014 9 comments

by lostchild445 8/3/2014

written by lostchild445

Sometimes I wonder
Is there really a future for me
I look back on all my history
and decide its not to be

Years of pain and struggle and strife
Multiple attempts to end my life
Failure upon failure and disappointment too
Not to mention the drugs and alcohol to boot

But people still say
Every dog has his day
Yet somehow its hard to wait for what may be

When will this day come?
It’s been plenty of moons
since the times I could stay home and watch cartoons
and be content

So much has changed yet so much has not
I feel like I went full circle, […]

8/3/2014 2 comments

“YOU’RE the reason.”

by Bleedinglove 8/3/2014

written by Bleedinglove

Too many people telling me what to do,

but I am only one person.

So when I don’t do what they wanted me to,

they weigh me down.

They expect me to be happy…

But how do they expect me to do that?

I mean there has to be tears, scars, and pain…

lots of it…

So when you find the blood on me and the empty bottles…

Don’t be surprised to see it…

But be surprised when I tell you,

“You’re the reason.”

-Phe

8/3/2014 0 comment

lol @ SP “birthday bot”

by clevername 8/2/2014

written by clevername

So tomorrow (US time, the 3rd) is my birthday… this morning i received a notification from what i have dubbed “the SP birthday bot.”

SP birthday bot claimed the “honor” of “drawing first blood” on birthday wishes.

The irony is potent.

Imagine… a person trapped in a life they wish had never occurred, who has frequented a suicide-centric website for over a year… receives a BIRTHDAY wish, from this site’s computer program (“bot”), prior to anyone else who has ever known me (aside from my mom and the older of my two half-sisters, with both of whom i share a domicile).

The first entity outside my residence, to mention […]

8/2/2014 31 comments

Easy does it

by tbd 8/2/2014

written by tbd

I’m feeling really defective right now.

I went to a special “designer” research hospital in New York last month. Today, the super bill came with the diagnosis codes. I haven’t received their final report yet, but one of the diagnoses has sort of kicked me in the gut and I don’t feel like I can talk with any family member about it lest they throw it in my face.

It has to do with cognitive impairment which can arise from head trauma or prolonged medical treatments. Full recovery is rare. I guess you’d have to see what I have trouble with now, compared […]

8/2/2014 15 comments

Like a Band-aid

by I-dont-love-right 8/2/2014

written by I-dont-love-right

So tired of this. I just wish I had the guts to actually jump. I wish I didnt care. Someone once told me that you should do suicide the way you take off a band-aid quick and at once, no backing out, no thinking about it. If only I could do that… Fuck, why can’t I do that!?!?

8/2/2014 14 comments

not gonna last much longer

by noobsaibot 8/2/2014

written by noobsaibot

so im socially awkward and im losing friends left and right,, im probly gonna die in a few months when i save up for a gun ..i lods my girlfriend of three years had to move out of her place (now shes a heroine addict) i was recently told by a pscycologist from my town that i fit the symtoms of adhd innattentive…which makes so much sense but im 24 now i feel like my life is ruined..i cant pay attention in conversation so now i avoid everyone…im afraid the doctor will think that im just out for drugs to sell..this is my last shot […]

8/2/2014 2 comments

Initial Contact

by darkseraph777 8/2/2014

written by darkseraph777

Hello everyone. A potential suicidal from Brazil right here. So, needless to say, English is not my primary language. I truly apologize if there is any kind of grammar mistakes on my reports here. Honestly, it is my first time posting something in a site such as this and I’m a little insecure of what to write here, but I decided to try and make contact and – I don’t know… See what happens. I don’t think it’s wise to keep all this torment to myself. If is ok with you, I would like to open up just a little… at least just once.

It is […]

8/2/2014 12 comments

I just want to disappear

by KuroNeko 8/2/2014

written by KuroNeko

Everything I do is worthless,everything I feel is useless,everything I hope for is always a cruel mirage and my soul is so full of pain I don’t feel like I have any strength anymore to keep forcing myself to live,what for? in the end life just hurts you,people take advantage of you the more sensitive and empathy you feel the worst and unlike they say it never actually gets better is all a lie it just lifts you up with a false pretense to throw you against the ground while it laughs at you and there you go again like a masochist standing up in order […]

8/2/2014 9 comments

It’s too much of a burden to be alive

by alum 8/2/2014

written by alum

So I guess I’m wondering if there is any difference in being dead in LA or NY. Not that I’m partial to either, but if I just go ahead and off myself in LA I would save a couple hundred for the plane ticket to New York. I guess I feel more comfortable in nyc, I know the area well and it would be nice to be there, something about the city I guess. It was the first place I really felt free. That would take a little bit more planning and less money to reimburse other people. Either way a hotel is pretty easy […]

8/2/2014 43 comments

What is wrong with me

by Infectious208 8/2/2014

written by Infectious208

I havent drank in a while because it usually ends up very badly for me but tonight, im really needing to just zone out. As I was pulling into my driveway coming back from the liquor store, I saw a wallet in the street. It had a decent amount of cash, some gift cards etc. I could have taken it all and just tossed the wallet in the garbage but, knowing it was the right thing to do, I took it over to the guys house and gave it to him. He was very grateful as most people would be but, unlike how I used […]

8/2/2014 3 comments

by You Dont Even Care 8/2/2014

written by You Dont Even Care

So my baby is gone I and so upset and I want to slit my throat every moment I think about changing things and I think about my baby. My boyfriend doesn’t even act like he cares. His mom told him before it all happened that we should get this over with so he could gwt away from me. And he wont even help me with this. His mom doesn’t care. I want to just be gone. I want him to know that I want him to help me tgrough this cause I fell stupid. He wont understand I hurt. His mom is like well […]

8/2/2014 1 comment

I’m sitting at this Laptop, Crying. Ready to Leave.

by LiftedCloseToEnd 8/2/2014

written by LiftedCloseToEnd

I can’t take this shit anymore.

I don’t even know where to start my story.

Actually, I’m not going to waste my time typing the story.

Nobody Cares

I hate my life.

I want to die.

It never gets better

8/2/2014 5 comments

fragile

by thelostgirl1499 8/2/2014

written by thelostgirl1499

My boyfriend is the only one who I told I’m breaking,I think he’s forgotten though.

He just keeps getting mad and upset and frustrated wih me and he tells me I’m pushing him away and I tell him things about ex’s and he struggles too forgive me but I’ve forgiven him for so much that hes done in his past.

I need his support,but he’s forgotten I need it..but I don’t know how too tell him in a polite,non attention seeking way….I need him..I’m scared of losing control..

8/2/2014 8 comments

When you’ve pushed everybody that’s came into your life away

by iRuiz55 8/2/2014

written by iRuiz55

It seems that pushing yourself 6 feet under would be a better feeling than this.

8/2/2014 0 comment

Anyone willing to help?

by Infectious208 8/2/2014

written by Infectious208

More and more as the days go by, I am realizing that the only way i can feel normal or ok again is to not feel at all. I am getting worse and worse and all this pain consumes me more every day. Heres what i need and even though i know none of you, i have no one else i can turn to and trust so hopefully one of you can help me. I need someone whom, when i finally let go, will contact the few people in my life that matter and give them a message for me. yes, i know i could […]

8/2/2014 2 comments

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