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i’m a fucking mess, but you can’t see that

by justtheoneintheback 6/29/2014

written by justtheoneintheback

I’m absolutely fucked. No one knows but its true. If your read this through than you’ll know but those that know me they won’t know, i’ll make sure of it. I’m 18 years old, just finished high school and going to be starting college next year. This absolutely should be the best time of my life right, or at least that’s what all those movies made me believe. I’m the one in the family that you probably get compared to. The one who is polite and behaves and has never had a boyfriend even though shes smart and easy to talk to. The reality is […]

6/29/2014 1 comment

Just a friendly reminder..

by RealTalk30 6/29/2014

written by RealTalk30

6/29/2014 9 comments

I really think tomorrow is the day

by That1guy94 6/29/2014

written by That1guy94

At this point I have been having thoughts of doing this for a week. I just can’t do it anymore. I haven’t been happy. I am so hurt and won’t ever be happy again. I am as low as a person can ever get and just keep getting hurt and cry all the time cuz nothing gets better. I already have all my goodbyes written and goodbye videos. I have my notes in place and I have no emotions anymore. I know how I am going to do this. And right now, it will be done tomorrow.

6/29/2014 7 comments

Living on borrowed time

by andartarius 6/29/2014

written by andartarius

In my head i died two months ago

I had moved to the big city, crowded with too many people, living in a small bedroom , all so that i could accomplish my long life goal of succeeding as an artist. But my illusions broke like a millions of shards of glass when i came confronted to the reality that i didnt had any more of my hard earned money to keep this dream alive, and after giving so much energy, i found myself at 24 years old, alone, broke, and with no one to speak to with no more energy to spare. I had 2 […]

6/29/2014 5 comments

just stop, okay?

by suicidal.bunny 6/29/2014

written by suicidal.bunny

I don’t understand why people try to sugarcoat self harm & suicide. Just stop. Stop thinking of it as a beautiful tragedy or a ‘tiger who earned their stripes.’ It’s really annoying. OH, and my favorite is when people don’t care about you until something bad happens. Fuck everyone. I hate society, I really do. Back to the sugarcoating part. It’s almost like people like to encourage self harm. You think that people are proud of the things they do? Things like this? Wow. Get your shit together people. I am proud of people who fight against hate though, you walk around with scars showing? […]

6/29/2014 8 comments

Please…. Don’t Come Back!!!

by RealTalk30 6/29/2014

written by RealTalk30

It dawned on me a moment ago that its very possible it could happen. Although I’d like to think you’re a stronger person than that, I felt I had to tell my end of it..
When you left me here alone, you took a part of me I can never get back. Not just your love and affection and the world beneath my feet.. But you took away my reason to fight, my reason to live. And because you knew it would destroy me, and still felt it was for the better, that part of me that fought for something more left with my undying […]

6/29/2014 17 comments

i don’t know what it is anymore

by youdontknowmeanyways 6/29/2014

written by youdontknowmeanyways

I don’t know what love is anymore which also made me depressed partly because the only girl i would say i love since 4 years is in america (im in china). I had different things that made me emotionally crippled as i would say myself because i don’t know what love is anymore or better said i can’t really love anyone truly right now (same with hating someone). This also helped me to become sick of life and me trying to end it.. Ive tried it several ways one of them was an overdose of drugs..

If anyone could tell me what love is means or […]

6/29/2014 6 comments

Love and Friendship

by luke4848 6/29/2014

written by luke4848

One day Love and Friendship met.
Love asked”why do you exist when I already exist?”
Friendship smile and said”to put a smile where you leave tears”
what do you think?
Is it true/ beautiful?

6/29/2014 5 comments

i want to help u

by ronal007 6/29/2014

written by ronal007

There was a time when i posted my sad story on this forum.To be honest i never want to remember those moments again in my whole life. But I definitely want to remember and thanks to this forum, that today i am a better person.

I met somebody through this forum who really helped me to overcome those bad days. I would like to do the same with people out here. I want to help you all and make you feel comfortable. I want you all to know that i will always be there if anyone needs me then feel free to msg me on inhellut@gmail.com

6/29/2014 2 comments

what I would say

by Allana 6/29/2014

written by Allana

I felt life should end upon the last argument with my spouse, who accused me of thinking I’m superior to him, that I look down on hime because he is a black man, despite that we share the same race; and finally, calling me the b-word, saying f- you over and over again, telling me to go to hell, and calling me a drug addict and racist. I do not take any drugs. My life as you can all see, is a nightmare, and death will be a mighty fine relief. If you are a friend of mine, please look out for my daughter. I […]

6/29/2014 3 comments

PAIN

by DeathDreamer 6/29/2014

written by DeathDreamer

”Why are you measuring me? Thank you sir, but I don’t need a new suit.” – He’s the undertaker…

– I ran into your ex today…. with my car.

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I WANT TO DIE. Right fucking now. It never gets any better I swear. My soul is bleeding from exhaustion. I am so tired, so bored of trying. I can’t take it. I want to close my eyes and never wake up. I’m just waiting for the right day to do it. I can’t take another winter. Fuck this life […]

6/29/2014 5 comments

Wonder if anyone would ever read this…

by ThornsOfParadise 6/29/2014

written by ThornsOfParadise

AN: I just joined this website and this was something that I wrote a while back when I was down.I don’t happen to have any mental disorders or abnormalities and the disorders written in here are merely words that flowed into my mind when I was down. I don’t mean to offend anyone here , I’m just sharing my poem. It’d be great if anyone replied though…

The horrors of my mind,

they haunt my days and night.

I’m afraid to close my eyes,

for I know that it is there where they reside.

I’m so empty that it scares me.

Purplish bruises form below my eyes,

I hardly sleep

and yet I […]

6/29/2014 5 comments

First Post

by greensky 6/29/2014

written by greensky

Hi. I’m a 38-year-old female. I’ve been reading on this site for many months. But I’ve never posted. Today I felt like I should share my story. The first time I thought about suicide was when I was 10. I can remember locking myself in my bedroom closet for two months surrounding myself with pillows crackers and fantasizing about who would be at my funeral and whether anyone would care, I scratched at my wrists. That was the only self harm I can ever recall. That was the beginning of what I consider the bad gene. Fast forward to now present day and what I […]

6/29/2014 6 comments

Suicide by drug abuse (purposely)

by Stain 6/29/2014

written by Stain

I was reading about 70s teen heartthrob Andy Gibb and how he died right after his 30th birthday. The official cause of death was something about an inflammation of the heart after years of cocaine abuse. He had struggled with severe depression, but the family denied that it was a suicide, and the fact that he checked himself into a hospital (where he died 3 days later) seems to show it wasn’t suicide.

It made me wonder if I started now, how long would it take for me to wreck my own body? And is this the “long form” of suicide that so many people have […]

6/29/2014 28 comments

sick of life

by deadtragedy 6/29/2014

written by deadtragedy

i am just ready to give up, time to cut and relieve my stress for finally.

Sick of all this stupid shit. Same thing everyday, done with it.

6/29/2014 1 comment

I’m sorry

by hogpotter 6/29/2014

written by hogpotter

I’m sorry I can’t save you. I’m sorry I’m not smart enough. Not great enough. Not rich enough.

I’m sorry for being stupid enough to keep fighting a dying battle.

But you are my reason, and I’m sorry I keep holding on to that reason. I’m sorry I cannot forget you.

I’m sorry I couldnt save you.

6/29/2014 8 comments

Never Thought I Would Be In This Dark Place

by strike3forlife 6/29/2014

written by strike3forlife

So I have never blogged before but I figured it might help to get some of this stuff off my chest.

Where to begin???? Well currently I am going through a divorce from the mother of my 2 youngest children and I have no one to blame but myself.

I love her so much but have hurt her over and over again throughout the last 6 years. I have been unfaithful more times than I can count and I deserve for her to leave me. I would have left me a long time ago. She is the most beautiful, patient and forgiving woman ever. She is the […]

6/29/2014 6 comments

I can’t find an answer

by Disenchanted7 6/29/2014

written by Disenchanted7

I keep slipping further and further down, this life is a bottomless pit. I’ve sold almost everything I’ve owned, my house (freely rented since I became homeless) is a state, I look like shit, I can’t sleep, communicate or learn, and I’m too depressed to do anything about to care for those things. I’ve been racking my a brains trying to find some way of making money, looking into things I shouldn’t but I’m too stupid to even make money illegally. It’s all patched up or too complicated. I’m clinging on for dear life but I’m already dead. I can’t accept it, I’ve always had […]

6/29/2014 2 comments

A description of depression

by lostchild445 6/29/2014

written by lostchild445

A comparison

Have you ever read what it is like to fall in to a black hole? That’s what depression feels like. You’re slowly moving towards the end, regardless of how hard you struggle you can not escape. Time slows down for you while the world seems to move on faster without you. You can only see the things that came in with you, your problems and vices, all floating next to you as you fall in to a singularity of your own misery. And to an onlooker, you will never actually disappear. Only get closer and closer to the end, but in reality, you’ve […]

6/29/2014 1 comment

The feel good dream

by iwillmakeitgoaway 6/29/2014

written by iwillmakeitgoaway

Well. Let’s face the facts babe.

you’re dead . cold.

softly floating in your blood. your eyes popped out of your skull like they were trying to reach out and strangle me.

and i finanlly undrerstood what had happened. i was not shaken.

i completely regognized the act of brutal savagery that was before my own eyes.

it did not strike fear into my heart.

only regret.the sting of regret that you didnt die slower.

that broke my heart. if i had one.

6/29/2014 0 comment

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