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exactivity is not a real word

by khajiit
written by khajiit

maybe I just don’t understand myself or perhaps my perception has been distorted to the point where I can’t recognize the familiarities in me, but I just don’t know. I don’t know where my life has gone and the prospect of where it’s going scares me. I don’t know what to say, my thoughts are jumbled and hard to articulate, those emotions are ineffable and I can’t stand their presence.

I’m longing for a life I never had or perhaps a life that I feel I no longer have the ability to conceive, a life I can’t even fathom or translate into words. the world around […]

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From Ashes

by RealTalk30
written by RealTalk30

Yesterday is over..

Yet in the blink of my eye there is still rebirth from the bitterness. There is still hope beyond hopelessness. There is a light!
To late to drown far off the shores from where we’ve been..the tide has turned back to us, and will bring us home
Never to be blinded by the salt of promise, and never to be forgotten!
Wind, breath, earth and my strength rise up in times I need it so desperately.. In times others need it the most!
Turn fire to the darkness and take comfort in its glow. Bring reason to your will, and to mine. Never […]

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How Much Longer

by PrisonBound
written by PrisonBound

Simple events cause downward spirals of pain and hopelessness. 45 years old and nothing to show…a complete loser and let down to everyone that knows me. It’s too late. People who say its never too late don’t know the pain, the challenges, the guilt, the shame. Maybe its not too late, but it feels like it.

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I’m just tired

by ItsASecretShh
written by ItsASecretShh

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I’m tired. I’m just tired.

I’m tired of food. I’m tired of television. I’m tired of work. I’m tired of school. I’m tired of going outside. . I’m tired.

Anytime someone asks how I am, my answer isn’t “I’m fine”

The answer is “I’m tired”

I’ve lost any shred of hope that I might of had. And I don’t see the point.

And the funny thing? I’m tired…but I can’t sleep.

I guess I’m not physically tired. I’m mentally and emotionally tired.

I don’t know what to do with my life anymore.

I don’t feel like going anywhere. I don’t feel like talking.

I seriously […]

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by dead
written by dead

There is a loneliness in this world 
So great that you can see it in the slow movement of the hands of a clock
People so tired, mutilated, either by love or no love.
People just are not good to each other.
We are afraid.
Our educational system tells us that we can all be big winners
But it hasn’t told us about the gutters or the suicides.
Or the terror of one person aching in one place
Alone, untouched, and unspoken to.

How many times do we have to […]

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Betrayed by Daddy

by What_is_Happiness
written by What_is_Happiness

Betrayal!
I was 6 years old when it happened
It felt like the end,
When you betrayed us
To mum’s best friend.

At the start she was just a nail lady,
Then we started having tea,
I was never really fond of her,
She did always charge a high fee.

But then she met you
This was when I knew she was bad
She took a liking to you,
My so called loving Dad.

It then developed to sleepovers
With her in a fold out bed,
One time I came out and saw you
Under her quilt that was red.

Then there was the year of the teen formal

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by MysteryGirl
written by MysteryGirl

It’s the worst feeling in the world being blamed by your own mother for her stress. It hurts what doesn’t she think i have things going on to. That maybe i hide it so i don’t cause her more pain than i already have. Does she not think that maybe i just want a hug and to know that i can talk to her not just the blame every time i do something slightly wrong in her opinion.

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by Jay
written by Jay

I’m walking down the line that divides me somewhere in my mind. Don’t get too close it’s dark inside, it’s where my demons hide: drink until they stop screaming your name. I’m down to my last drink, time to sell my things. Pack my bags and never look back. Run a parallel line with the railroad tracks. Make my getaway. How the hell did it end up like this? Why wasn’t I able to see the signs that I missed and try and turn the tables? I would stand in the wind, I was free like water flowing down under the warmth of the sun. […]

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I hate myself

by blckcat
written by blckcat

I wanted to cut myself but I didn’t.
I never do.
It’s like I enjoy internalizing my pain for some sick pleasure.
If I’m depressed or sad at least I feel something—
otherwise I feel nothing.

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pr4y me

by Bisban
written by Bisban

Sands of hell, here at the end. Pray for me, everybody.
I am the Ho-Oh, and nowhere to land. The faith, is dying.
My name is dead Ash C’atchem, here in the belly.
My totem pokemon is the muk. My cherry pick was a bulbasaur.
Here, in the world. The journey, there is only one.
A venomoth flew in my eye today, I think that was good luck.
I will catch you next time, venemoth, and butterfree.
Man, life could be so beautiful, if simply so. Heal me.

A journey toward celestial, my name is dead Ash C’atchem.
The entire lower hands, my fated. My totem, […]

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Tired of the Same Day

by FallingSlow
written by FallingSlow

I am tired of waking up to the same day.  My day is filled with emptiness and sadness.  I love a man that will never love me back.  His excuses exhaust me.  “I love you” he says, then tells all of his friends “Oh, we are just friends”.  He keeps himself open for a better prize.  I have now loved 2 men in my life and gave 100% to each relationship.  While in the relationship each man found love in the arms of other women.  I forgave them, moved past it, but never fully trusted.  I am now 30, I have given over 10 years […]

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I’m here for you

by Autumn
written by Autumn

Hi, so I just made this, found this website on tumblr. I wanted to tell you guys that I’m here for any of you not completely sure how this works I don’t think you can message people? if you can then feel free to message me or you can always kik me @autumnnwi or message me on tumblr can-i-be-your-barbie-girl . I’m not here to judge or make you feel worse about yourself, I myself have suicidal thoughts, I have cut myself (haven’t in 2 weeks), also have problems with my weight, and have anxiety. However I’m not really here for anyones pity or anything like […]

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If you need someone

by brebrook
written by brebrook

Hey guys. I’ve posted this before, but I’ll do it again. Please, if you ever need anything at all, email me, breannakienzle@gmail.com. I would really love to hear from you. I will not judge you or scold you, I’m just here to help and, if you want, give you any advice I can. I’ll respond to you as soon as I can.

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Day 4

by kem67
written by kem67

Still angry at myself for going back on my promise of no water. I’m going to probably what’s seemingly rambling but I need to get things off my chest. I got a message asking me about medications. I’ve been doing medications since I was in my early teens and NONE of them have helped they just leave me walking around like a zombie. Its amazing how many people can use the word “unstable” towards someone and not realize how much that word can hurt. Truthfully, YOU never knew of my bi-polar disorder, why? because I”M FUCKING ASHAMED of it. Then people use that word that […]

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Unwanted and Invisible

by Spoyald
written by Spoyald

Almost a year ago I tried to kill myself after my husband of 23 years dumped me. I had alcohol and Xanax and felt that was a way to tell him f*ck you. I ended up in ICU for a day then the nuthouse for two more. After I got out he left me alone by myself for a day and half until my sister got here. I could barely walk but he didn’t care.  Since then I have been trying to cope with the whole situation but its hard after finding out he was engaged to another woman before we were even divorced. My […]

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The Not So Pretty Thoughts…

by EmberFalls
written by EmberFalls

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My struggle with depression/anxiety as well as coming from an abusive/chaotic home with a parent who had, at the time, undiagnosed bi-polar have taught me to be strong and rely on myself.  It also taught me, after years of therapy and self analysis, that people’s words can’t have power over you unless you allow them to.

I’ve always been very empathetic to others.  My parents said as a toddler I would cry if a character got hurt or died in a Disney movie.  I used to think […]

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My little fuzzy ball of crazy

by KnightKat-369
written by KnightKat-369

Ok, a few years out of high school I decided that I was ready to die. Things weren’t bad, I had a job that put a little money in my pocket, I had a great car and I was dating a girl who was fun to be with, but still I was just ready to go. Then I meet a new girl that I fell in love with. I figured she wouldn’t stay with me for to long, there was a bit of an age gap between us. So I figured I would ride it out and see how I felt when she finally moved […]

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