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by pennyc32 6/13/2014

written by pennyc32

ive been in care from a year old. throughout my childhood it was a never ending stream of social workers, supervised access visits and confusion.my foster parents threw me out when I was 12 as apparently they couldn’t cope with me – I was swearing, smoking a little and being generally grim (normal teenager but whatever) from there was the downfall, or maybe that started when I was born who knows. I lived with 2 other fosters carers after that (1 of which sexually abused me) and I left care when I was 15 to get away from all the nightmares.from then my real mum […]

6/13/2014 0 comment

1 day up 4 days down.

by Grayskies 6/13/2014

written by Grayskies

one day im fine , the next im not..

it hurts holding it all in, having small things trigger breakdowns. Popping the pill to make it allÂ go away for a bit, but its still there..in the darkness waiting for the perfect moment to strike onceÂ again and makingÂ you shatter into a million pieces.

Unrepairable.

Damaged.

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I was given a golden life, but ruined it all

by jackknife909 6/13/2014

written by jackknife909

I have had everything given to me and I screwed it all up…..I have a bad habit of smoking pot and hookah

My parents provided me with everything and my habits, along with a habit of stealing got me in a lot of legal trouble

I got into legal trouble in 2001 and was arrested for a felony, but the prosecutor was nice enough to knock it down to a misdemeanor

I got into medical school in 2004….got kicked out a year later for smoking pot and getting caught for stealing a wifi connector from the computer lab in the med school and shoplifting at a store….again it […]

6/13/2014 3 comments

Sad, mad, and confused..

by isuckatchoosingnames 6/13/2014

written by isuckatchoosingnames

Well, where do I start? I’ll start with the reason I decided to even consider writing this. Well while messing around on my laptop, I realized I haven’t left my room for a week, minus going to the bathroom, eating, and showering. After that I realized I’ve been in my room for a lot of my life. I’m not very close with my mom, I push her away when she tries to get close. I have plenty of friends, I just prefer to stay in my room and talk to people over the internet. I left my room last week to go on a walk […]

6/13/2014 1 comment

Cutter

by valeth 6/13/2014

written by valeth

I started cutting myself when I was 15. When I get too depressed and crying isn’t enough I just cut.

I’m 20 now and have been clean for years… but today I was so depressed that I coudn’t handle it and cut myself again.

I feel good after doing it… all the pain seems to go away after a deep cut but I hate to get attention. I hate when someone sees the scars and asks.

I usually cut near my foot so I can hide it by wearing boots. Is there any better place to cut so you can hide it? I have a boyfriend and I […]

6/13/2014 3 comments

No More; I’m Finished.

by AarinaDaae 6/13/2014

written by AarinaDaae

Usually, I start out my posts in metaphors and similies because that is how my brain works. That is how I think…constantly making connections and drawing lines. This time, I am going to just full out rant and rave because I’m finished.

I’ve screamed for help. I’ve got to counselors and I’ve gone to friends. I get shut out every time. No one believes me when I say that I am so anxious, scared, and depressed that I would find any way to make it stop. Last night, I sliced my arm open ready to let red run. Unfortunately, I didn’t die. My cut let out […]

6/13/2014 3 comments

and here we go again.

by addyaddy11 6/13/2014

written by addyaddy11

I didn’t mean to do it but i did and i am sorry. It hurts but it makes me forget. I am sorry i let my family down. I promised them i would not do it and i did, I thought i out grew it but i haven’t. I thought i was strong enough but i am not. I am sorry Love you Brice, hope you can forgive me.

6/13/2014 0 comment

2 Year Plan

by expirationdate 6/13/2014

written by expirationdate

What a fun site.Â The chance to share the most private of thoughts.

Where to begin…

By all accounts you would think that my life was perfect, or close enough.Â Very successful in my field, well-loved by my community, a fun set of hobbies, not in financial crisis.Â So what’s wrong?

I’ve always suffered from depression.Â Thoughts of suicide.Â My wife has been great at keeping me out of it.Â But over the years, she has grown so very distant.Â I don’t think she is cheating on me; it’s not in her personality.Â But these days she’s a roommate, nothing more.Â Intimacy has dried up to infrequent… and […]

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I’m ready to stop crying for help

by Remnant The Unbroken 6/13/2014

written by Remnant The Unbroken

It’s like I’m destined to feel this desperate and guilty my whole life. Jesus please save me, help me, show me, do something to let me know you’re there and not just a story for us to feel good about. I want to meet you when I die, not a black void.

6/13/2014 10 comments

Ugh

by uglyuglykenni 6/13/2014

written by uglyuglykenni

I’m stuck in my life. I just got into a fight with my parents and they told me I stink. They’ve been hinting that they don’t want me living here a lot lately. I could hair get a job and move out but I’ve ruined my life at 19 because I have drug charges against me. I was smoking weed on campus and I got caught. Actually I was smoking because I thought the weed would make me feel better…. It doesn’t btw. Weed makes me feel even worse. I hate me man.

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Till this day I cry when I get touched there.Thats how fucked I am,thank you cousin.

by lifeishorrible 6/12/2014

written by lifeishorrible

Last week I went to the city jail for traffics that I thought somehow vanished.I was pissed cause I was acting all cocky when they pulled up.I was like why are y’all here were not doing anything here.They asked for my name,I gave It to them In anger,a minute later I’m being handcuffed & they told me I had nine traffic ticket warrents.I was In a shitty mode cause I was finally getting better & this shit happens so Is felt like shit on the way there.When I get there they started to search me and then he put his hands there!!I moved & said […]

6/12/2014 10 comments

Lost Cause

by that-guy-danny 6/12/2014

written by that-guy-danny

I’m 16 years old and I’m considering suicide. My life is so useless I’m nothing but a leeche that sucks off my mother and fathers hard working cash. everytime I try to look at my sister to say hi she looks at me as if I was a creep . My own brother calls me a fatty and never stops saying it but he’s right. I’m addicted to gaming and this has led to my bad grades and I could never make my mom and dad proud. I’m so lazy and a waste of space this is all my fault I’m obese and I have […]

6/12/2014 5 comments

Relapse and Recovery

by Rayven Dawn 6/12/2014

written by Rayven Dawn

Iâ€™m going to draw a picture
A picture with a twist
But instead of a pen and paper
Iâ€™ll use a razor and my wrist
The razor digs in slowly
The line begins to bleed
My wrists are getting bloody
This is the picture that I need
My fingers are getting shaky
Iâ€™m finding it hard to think
My throat is getting tight and hoarse
The tears are coming when I blink
I can hear my kitten purring
Heâ€™s scratching at the door
My little sister opens it
And finds me laying on the floor
She screams and shouts out â€œMommyâ€
My momâ€™s now running […]

6/12/2014 1 comment

Happiness

by sunflower 6/12/2014

written by sunflower

i see everybody moving on, everyone whos left me. everyone who was important to me. and i have moved on too maybe physically but not mentally. i still long for those people for the talk for the closeness for the laughs for being in their presence. Some im glad have moved on the ones who were negative mean nasty but it seems as though they are happy… Â then why cant i be happy. fully completely. there always seems to be something. And although Â seeing the people i once considered friends, lovers, family happy should make me happy as well there is a twinge of sadness […]

6/12/2014 2 comments

The regulars

by paingoaway 6/12/2014

written by paingoaway

Hey those who come on here regularly, im a lonely person and would Â like to introduce myself. Hi people.

6/12/2014 8 comments

Why Am I. . .

by Heal My Hopeless Heart 6/12/2014

written by Heal My Hopeless Heart

Why am I still here at all? I’m a fucking failure at everything to do with life – including ending it. I could have jumped that not-so-fair day in May. I could be at peace, or whatever it is that happens after death, sleeping in a pine box 6 feet underground. I could have left all this shit behind me. . . so why am I still here?

To die, or not to die. To live, or not to live – those are the questions. I thought for a while I had escaped the dim cloud of gloom that hovers over me, but it has again […]

6/12/2014 0 comment

I was 5 years-old the first time I tried….

by Tzik 6/12/2014

written by Tzik

Suicide is something that most people will contemplate at some point in their life, but how common is it for a 5-year-old?

It was the middle of the summer holidays after my first year of school, I wanted more than anything to go out and do something in the nice weather, (which is rare where I live, even in the summer) I wasn’t asking for anything extravagant – even to just go to the beach and get an ice-cream would have been a fantastic day out for me, but, of course, my parents couldn’t afford it. I remember spending weeks in my room, bored out of […]

6/12/2014 7 comments

by broken818 6/12/2014

written by broken818

i feel so worthless & alone ….

6/12/2014 3 comments

by Remnant The Unbroken 6/12/2014

written by Remnant The Unbroken

http://faithtap.com/1186/an-and-rias-first-flight/?a=1

I had to admit that video made me smile. It makes me wonder how people enjoy life so much, find the urge to continue to live. It makes me feel bad for wanting to die.

6/12/2014 2 comments

How do I

by indigo rain 6/12/2014

written by indigo rain

Talk my friend out of cutting? I cut but not at all close to what I used to. All I’ve got is that scars are forever and it’s addictive

6/12/2014 0 comment

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