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its time for me to get out of here. it wont be long now. i just need to get a gun. Dammit!!
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I don’t exactly feel a whole lot anymore. About anything really. I don’t feel anything for myself one bit. I feel quite a bit for others who have pain but I always treat myself like shit. I know I shouldn’t but I’ve been doing it for so long that it’s just kind of natural for me to do it. I don’t even realize I’m doing it most of the time until others tell me to stop being negative or that I shouldn’t say such things. Eventually they make reasons for not being able to get together and then they stop calling all together. Leaving you […]
Im an 18 year old male college student, and I’m home for the summer but have no friends and nobody to talk to, just myself and my thoughts… I can’t take it anymore. I almost failed out of college last semester because I slept through half my classes and stopped doing my work. There’s a lot of cool people I’ve met at college but I’ve slowly been distancing myself from them because of what I’m going to do. In 2 weeks I start work for a month and the tuesday after I finish work, I’m buying a gun and taking a bus somewhere way out […]
I wish and want things within my life to get better, but for somehow they just continue to get worser. I have Borderline Personality Disorder, Insomnia, Generalized and Social Anxeity Disorders and a long list of other problems I dont care to list. I’ve been suffering from Depression since I was nine years old, I also started self- harming at this age. I’ve been thru alot trying to recover and cope with the issues I have going on from day to day. It s taking a tow on me, and I can’t seem to focus on anything else besides my issues. Hate my life and Hate […]
Depression triggered from a heartbreak and how it has ruined my life.
by greenone
written by greenone
I am young. The love of my life recently left me a few months back, my friends left me too because they did not want to deal with the tension between us. Suddenly I am gone, I am not there anymore. I am in my twenties and in college, my parents say perhaps the best thing for me is to move to a new city and start again. I can live with my mother in that city and need not to worry about society, which I have totally withdrawn from. Maybe they are right, maybe they are not. The pain is excruciating. I cannot describe […]
this is part of my exposition  do you think what i have written sounds alright this is about suicide for my SACE subject……..
Thirdly feeling like you have nothing good in your life left. Even if the statement isn’t true and you can see the good in there life they cant the bad has over ran it
I guess the days are painful. A type of pain that will never go away. There is nothing I can do about it. Nothing that anyone can do about it. The pain will never stop. I cry for help, but there is no point. The pain will never subside. The more I beg my mind for mercy, the more in punishes me. The mind is powerful, finding enjoyment and release in the most painful of things. The splitting and burning sensation of ones skin, the self inflicted pain creating such indescribable pleasure is frightening. The pain is good.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_NfnXdXpjL0
This song constantly makes me think about my ex, it breaks my heart but in the comforting relatable way where you hate yourself but you know someone else feels the same too.
“Goodbyes
And the Autumn night when we realised
We were falling out of love
But we never did.”
The seven-year, solstice, apex, has reach.
In oblivion, I never made it.
Suddenly, like the cold breeze.
A pocket, down, under the fox.
Pray for me, for my evolution path.
My name, would of been “Water-Man.”
Pray for the Muk, I will disappear.
In life, journeying through the underway.
One day, not even imaginable.
Stay strong, and have fun.
Waves.
Adios.
The last Templar of the Argonians, never made it.
Perhaps, the upcoming Warhammer 40K.
To all princesses, never let my words get you down.
Oh, and princes, build the castle.
See you all later. =)
Wow. I dont care what anyone thinks anymore fuck em… I mean. I feel mor numb then ever, but nothing hurts me ether, I supper with my self harm addiction this could be troublesome later… But you know what. I don’t care if I slit my wrists and blead out at all. As I said I just don’t care. I mean Is this really so bad, is suicide even such a bad thing, what dose my dieng entail for anyone else….
Despite the fact I’m going to be dead within the next few weeks, I still fear what people think of me. If that’s not a sign that my social anxiety would never abate then I don’t know what is. I can’t describe how difficult it is to be around my family now, but it is mental and emotional torture. I’ve got to pick up my brother tomorrow who’s staying for a few days and I’m sure he’s gonna get sick of me and we’ll fall out. I am so scared because I am aware of which situations I become hated and weddings and big social […]
HI! Let’s talk something,if you’re native language is English, you can help me with that. Let’s talk about life or something if you’re feeling lonely or something we can talk. Post your FB or Skype, I’ll add you 🙂
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I haven’t cut since High School. I worked myself up and away from the self destruction. Now, as I sit here and watch the red run, I wonder how I allowed myself to get back to this place. Blood truly is thicker than water…
I really should be studying for my history exam but I can’t seem to stop thinking about suicide. I don’t know what to do ,I’ve been like this for so long. I’m scared of my own mind , I’m afraid of what I’m capable of. I’m only 14 by the way. I just feel horrible about myself , I try so hard in everything I do but it’s always not enough for some people. I push everyone away from me I’m so isolated in my own little world. School gets out Friday . I guess I made it through my freshmen year. I wasn’t at […]
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=shdiTRxTJb4
One was watching the other day a red-tailed hawk, high in the heavens, circling effortlessly,
without a beat of a wing, just for the fun of flying, just to be sustained by the air-currents.
Then it was joined by another, and they were flying together for quite a while;
they were marvellous creatures in that blue sky,
and to hurt them in any way is a crime against heaven.
Of course there is no heaven; man has invented heaven out of hope, for his life has become a hell,
an endless conflict from birth to death, coming and going, making money, working endlessly.
This life […]
I’m alright for now.
Just posting videos for the one I love. Take a look:
Hope you guys are well too.
Sincerely,
Nobody915
the feeling of constantly being unwanted really sucks hey
I’ve always liked that song. My time here on earth is almost up. I have only a few items that remain on my checklist. Throughout this process the only regrets I have is never being in love, never having a child of my own, and not being around to see my nieces and nephews grow up. I’m not afraid of dying. I thought I would be but I realized that fear was based on religious beliefs and on the uncertainty of whether I would be successful in my suicide attempt. I’ve decided not to fret about either what is meant to be will be. I […]
I know I have nothing to complain about. I am a highly successful in my field, received many achievements, published many papers and have lots of friends and family that love me. I have travelled the world.
Why can’t I make myself happy?
Why can’t I make my mind quiet down and stop these feelings of inadequacy and unhappiness? It’s so fucking exhausting to appear composed and totally with it, and I feel like such a sham deep down. I need to get out of this, but I feel so trapped at the same time.
Believe it or not I am vacationing in Italy right now. I am visiting my parents (who have been here for the last year) and my mama and my self are in rome. I have been going through a custody battle for about the last year. My son is 5 years old and i had him for the first 3 1/2 years until i sent him to his dads to recover from my addiction and restore my mental health… then he decided not to send him back. (Granted his father wasnt a part of his life until then and moved clear across the country to […]