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I’m stupid to think he would ACTUALLY want me….. WHY? Why does this always happen to me? I can’t even fucking CRY! He won’t talk to me, and he is with a new one. I warned her this time, because that f*cking b*tch is not worth her time. Not worth anyone’s time. He deserves to be alone. Sorry, but you don’t do this kinda crap to ANYONE. And I’m so tired of being used like this! I’m good until you get what you want and then you move on until you’re tired of them. Then where are you? Back to me because they won’t give […]
does anyone see it like I do. Am I even real, Do I count as a human?
I feel like my suicide is gonna happen this week
Has anyone had any success faking being happy? If so, I want to hear your ideas…. PLEASE. Iwork at this job that I don’t like at all and I am so depressed that it is getting hard to get up each day. But, I MUST appear happy at work. Our company serves these rich people and you must be nicey-nice and kissy-butt all of the time. I MUST be cheerful, sunny and bright, no matter how terrible or tired I feel.
I know I’m walking around with this stupid, fake goddamn smile pasted on my face, but I risk losing my job if I do not. […]
I don’t know whats going on and I can’t really feel, its like I don’t have any real emotions. The few times I do feel sad I cry because I look at my life and feel like I should be crying. But I only end up crying a few tears and then I feel nothing again. I don’t love, I just remember thinking that I did at some point in my life. My ex and I just fell apart literally we just stopped talking and just pushed each other and I cried but there was never a real ending a real break up. We just […]
I am only 25 but I feel like suicide has become the only option for me. I want to share my story with you and I hope you’ll give me an honest response on whether it suicide seems acceptable in my case.
My life has always been fucked up. My mum was schizophrenic and an alcoholic. From the post natal depression she was deemed unfit to care for us and I went through several foster families who abused and physically attacked me. She died from liver poisoning when I was 5. My dad took my brother and I in for two years but we lived in […]
if youre from australia, like heavy/core metal, please introduce me as an aqquaintance atleast hey
He thinks I’m interesting and have so many secrets hidden behind me eyes, but I don’t. I wish I did.
He knows I’ve got a story, and thinks I’m dying to share it with him, but I never ever will.
Why does he bother playing games with my head, when he knows that my mind is too fucked to even care?
He thinks he understands me, but there’s nothing to understand.
Moby – The Sky Is Broken (Markus One Strings Works Remix)
The song is preparing me for the incoming advent with one rule; rather burn out than fade away so it’s full throttle or nothing.
Love for life is gradually fading and the sunsets are getting lesser. As far as I’m concerned – I’m almost done. Can’t fight the endless war of growing pain. I just might get lucky and get a heart attack; death is coming soon for me nevertheless – just pray the God that my demise will be painless. I fear of no death, but the pain.
Maybe this suicide mania of my mine wasn’t […]
Boys cry.
Cigarettes do kill,
parents lie,
boats sink,
flowers die.
Life goes on,
with or without you.
She picks up the tiny sharp object,
only to put it back down.
She tries to forget, but only reflects,
so much that she wants to drown.
They think she won’t break
but, oh lord, do they not know?
“I need to explain,” her hand shakes,
“My lowly tale of woe.”
Her heart is a drumbeat beating,
the rhythm is slow and steady.
“Why is life so bittersweet?”
She writes and clutches her teddy.
Hurt has left her feeling alone,
everyone else has done the same.
She wished she hadn’t picked up the phone
that cold september day.
“Slut” the phone spoke,
the words piercing her heart.
“*****” her […]
Daaamn, I like him so much! Why can’t he see how much though?
He’s so sweet, kind, caring and nice! Ever since I met him my depression hasn’t been as bad, he makes me so happy.. Even when he’s being annoying or being a ****. He’s my annoying ****! He never fails to make me smile.. We can ourselves around eachother. He has such beautiful eyes, actually everything about him is amazing!
Damn age gap! I wish I had the balls to tell him, but knowing my luck he’ll tell me to get to fuck! Stupid feelings.
I thought partial suspension with a drop would be easier than partial suspension without a drop. I was wrong. It still requires willpower to (step off)/kick the drop point. I managed to step off after a while. Unfortunately, I was able to get back on the drop point. Moreover, I found that the drop point was too low as my toes touched the floor. Furthermore, my left hand was trying to stop me. On Friday morning this week, I will try again. I will do so from a higher suspension point so that my feet are off the floor. I will also tie my hands […]
I wish that I could just re-start my life and stop myself from making the same mistakes that I made…
as theist believe- rebirth
if you reborn again- keep suicide until you born again as rich, beautiful, intelligent human
It is like restarting a video game when you know you going to loose- It is logical to restart the game instead of wasting another couple of hours to loose
That’s the reason I say human race heading towards stupidity. They live life without asking why, simply following ancestors ideology.
Married, merely just around 5 months ago.. I am kinda unsettled, doesn’t know driving a car much, and although I am optimistic, but sometimes I do realize that it’s been long since I smiled from heart, and this causes me a feeling of helplessness and suicidal tendency.
Till around 1 month of marriage, it was going smooth and happily, but after that, I did some mistakes, and those caused some problems in my married life. I love my wife, but she says she has less attachment towards me, my family or even my city. She is suffering from depression and many times she suffers from pain, […]
I’m new to this website and I really just want to let my feelings out.
So first off, I’m 17 years old and a girl (I know, I know, you’re probably expecting me to whine but hear me out)
Maybe about 5 months ago I was hospitalized because I tried to kill myself. I had depression for a long time and was even diagnosed, but my parents didn’t believe me until they saw me passed out on my bed with slits on my thighs and an empty bottle of sleeping pills at my nightstand. Even then, my dad thinks depression doesn’t exist (‘Fake it till you make […]
I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. MY HEART IS BROKEN, I LOST MY LOVER AND MY BESTFRIEND. SHES NEVER COMING BACK. AND THE WORST PART IS THAT I DROVE HER AWAY WITH ALL MY INSECURITIES. NOT TRUSTING HER ALL THE NAGGING AND PUSHING HER AWAY. I LOST THE BEST AND WORST PART OF ME FOREVER. SHE NEVER WANTS TO SEE ME.AND ITS ALL MY FAULT. AS I SIT HERE WITH TEARS RUNNING DOWN MY EYES IM LOST WITHOUT HER. MY LIFE IS OVER…. I CANT LIVE WITHOUT HER. I CANT … I CANT PICK UP THE PIECES ON THIS ONE. MY HEART IS BROKEN. NO […]
I’m just done. I fucked up everything, I’m just done with everything
I’m tired I wish I sleep forever. I hate myself. 🙁 I just don’t feel right anymore , everything is getting more worse. Growning up sucks. I’m sick of this shit , I’ve lost the ability to feel anymore , I don’t know how to feel. I just feel like dying 🙁 !!!!!